so far away

aisha woke me up this morning
and i guess she woke me up for like about billion times, but i keep on sleeping back.
ahaha.
i heard her last word,
' wake uppp kakngah ! we're late, nak hantar Uncle Madni ni, you ikut tak ? '
so i blinked my eyes in a cute way ( cheeh -.- )
so i pegi mandi.

went KLIA and we talked and talked while waiting.
Who else were there? um Aunty Aza with her family, Aunty Regina, Uncle Suhaimi, Aunty Tommy, Aunty Nor.
yeah.
lapaar gila tengok foods on the table :9
they're not fasting sebab musaffir.
hahaha, i couldnt take my eyes off Ahmed Jalal Rumy :P
he's so adorable. he's so cute
And Farida Zirek is so so beautiful ((':
she's tall, just like Uncle Madni. Not to mention, Aunty Farzana is gorgeous. Ghazali is exactly like her.

After we send them there, Uncle Suhaimi invited us to see his new house somewhere in .. subang, but in .. Enstek, Jentayu Enstek.
I tell you, houses there are freaking big.
ooo, and I loveee his children's room.
so colourful, and big !
* jealous

so, after checking out Uncle Suhaimi's house, we send Aisha to her friends house Fyra
and straight away go to One Utama.
Tapi Fafa tak keluar kereta pun -.-
my mom pegi suruh potong my dad's pants

going here and there, of course, makes you feel tired.
and i am tired right now -________-
sighs *


fafaistired
lots of love (:

Sweet Sixteen

i was invited to Moni's sweet sixteen party (:
and hell yeah, there were so maany people.
she looks beautiful just now.
Omg, her dress ! its friggin nice :D
And, i loveee her niece and nephew, they're twins and they are so cuteeee

PICTURES ?

alfie ?

Nur Muhammad Shazrul Alfie B Norazha ((:

I am sorry, for everything.
I really am.
I didnt wanna do this shits
but i had to
how i wish i could stop the time and make it right, and make you understand perfectly
how i wish i could restart a new conversation with you
i really love this relationship (:
I promise, this shit wont be long, it will end soon kay Alfie ?
and i hope you'll be back to normal (:
Like how you used to <3


lotsoflove,
farieda <3>

You're pathetic Bitch, gotohell

heeyyyy
im here with hot words.
(':

you're a freak which came into my life out of no where ?
he's my damn ex, b*tch
and if you're unsatisfied that i WAS with him FIRST,
say it to my face idiot
do you know that you're saying ?
what ever you said to me, is in YOU.
hahahahahahha, pathetic.
sending a msg on myspace saying ' why are you like this ? '
is so not wrong.
its you the one who thinks its soooo wrong. pfft,
btw, who the hell asks you to go and read his privacy ?

do you know you're just too stupid to fight over a guy.
ahaha.
really, THAT IS STUPID
you startedeverything first.
i only send that msg, i didnt even use the word
sayang, love, daring, baby or what so ever pun

think whateveerrr you said to me.
and if you love him, you wouldnt cari pasal with his ex.
betul kan ?
hahaha.

you're so pathetic

bad news

yesterday morning,

i didnt get to stay up until 6 as usual, Cause i was so tired

i was awaken by Ariff sweetheart.

obviously, he wakes me up like, everyday

thanks dear.

but today, he woke me up with a very shocking msg.

i jumped off my bed, i sat down and i read the msg again

it says :

' shafiq's dad passed away just now. ;( '

I was speechless for a moment, i shook my head, and recite al-fatihah in my head, for 3 times

Then i went down to have my so-so-early breakfast, haha, sahur lah !

after i ate, i texted ariff, i said i feel sorry about that and blabla.

i continued sleeping.

i woke up around 10 ?

i took my bath and tried to do something to kill the boredom

around 1.20 p.m, Ariff called, me.
i was preparing to go out that time,

he said he's bored.

he was waiting in the car at petaling jaya.

i asked him, shouldn't him be at shafiq's house ?

he answered :

' ohh, jenazah belum sampai ' - ariff

' whaa? jenazah daari mana ? ' - farieda

' oh, his dad was on the flight when he passed away. he was on the way from China to Malaysia ' - ariff

' ohmygod, kesiannya ' - farieda

' tu lah, dah lah shafiq rapat gila with his dad, bawak ayah dia pegi clinic, makan, memang manje lah dgn ayah dia ' - ariff

my heart feels so sad and touched

even tho i've met him once. and dnt know him that much

but still, i can imagine how does it feels like.

losing a Father is like losing your heartbeats, especially when you're so close with him.
i am sorry to hear that shafiq.
be strong .

al-fatihah to Datuk Ismail.

sweethearts <3

haha, i know i've been posting up conversations with my friends.
its kinda fun :p

Oh finally, my bestfriends and i had a lovely, pathetic, adorable conversation again.
But sadly, Tania Zainudin and Ammar Harith are not in the conversation )):
awwwh,



Lily Alyssa<3 says:
lets plan a date on when to meeet <3
Pei Waldorf says:
YES YES ! <3
farieda says:
oh heckk yes <3
Pei Waldorf says:
gahh, but wheeen?
farieda says:
(:
i am free
farieda says:
all the time i guess ?

Pei Waldorf just sent you a nudge.

Pei Waldorf says:
shit sorryy
Pei Waldorf says:
ahaha, (:
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
sokayh.
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
but when laah?
Pei Waldorf says:
mmmm, i haveee nooo iddeeaaa -_-
farieda says:
monday ?
Pei Waldorf says:
ho yeah!
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
mondaay?
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
wheree?
Pei Waldorf says:
mhhhmm,
Pei Waldorf says:
ask fafa ask fafa
farieda says:
i dnt know
Pei Waldorf says:
mmm,
Pei Waldorf says:
will ou be open?
farieda says:
iidkk
farieda says:
hahaha
Pei Waldorf says:
dayemn
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
i dnt wanna go ou ):
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
ou has too many food distraction!
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
hahahaha
farieda says:
yeaah,
farieda says:
hahahaha
farieda says:
so ? whereshall we go ?
farieda says:
someone's house is better
farieda says:
* keningkening
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
jom to FARIEDA'S!
farieda says:
omggg
farieda says:
hahaha
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
btw azriel told me you saw him shirtless before ;D
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
HAHAHAHAHA
farieda says:
myhouse semaak
farieda says:
OHH YES
HAHAHA
Pei Waldorf says:
FARIEDA HOUSEE!
farieda says:
he's seeexxyyy
farieda says:
aah
farieda says:
hahaa
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
agak daaah,
farieda says:
nt my house
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
ade abs tak?
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
;D
farieda says:
hahaa
farieda says:
ade sikit
farieda says:
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
ALAAA, i want faire's housee!
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
there would be twinkle dust all over!
farieda says:
my house cam keccooh
farieda says:
ahahahaha
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
and fairy wands!
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
hahahaha
farieda says:
aaaaaaaawwwwwww
farieda says:
haaha
farieda says:
((:
Pei Waldorf says:
me too! i wanna go faire's housee
farieda says:
alo alo tania takda dlm conversation
farieda says:
):
farieda says:
jom serang tania's house ?
farieda says:
he's house is superrr nice
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
oh JOOOOM!
farieda says:
* her
Pei Waldorf says:
oh damn, her house is friigging biig
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
I KNOOOOOOOW
farieda says:
i knnnoooooooooow
farieda says:
sepsep
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
i tak penah abes explore doooh
farieda says:
hhahaha
farieda says:
we need a map there
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
tu laa
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
boleh sesat!
farieda says:
we shall ask frm tania
farieda says:
nak rompak
farieda says:
ahahaha
Pei Waldorf says:
hahaha
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
permission to rob her house!
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
;p
farieda says:
HAHAHA
farieda says:
omg, lily,
farieda says:
jom suruh azriel buat lap dance ?
farieda says:
HAHAHAAHHA
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
HAHAHHA
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
omg, JOOOOOOOOM!
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
if he tak nak, we pakse je.
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
oooh, and him being SHIRTLESSS!
farieda says:
yes yes
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
woooh
farieda says:
hahaha
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
hahahhaha
farieda says:
DUUH
farieda says:
ahaha i tell you
farieda says:
when i came to taman kan
farieda says:
and the moment he saw me
farieda says:
he quickly took hisbaju
farieda says:
awww, so cute
farieda says:
haha
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
hahah, he told me he malu gileee
farieda says:
hahahaha
farieda says:
he's nice ya know
farieda says:
he helped me alot at school
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
aww, goood (:
farieda says:
yah (:
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
jom we go lepak?
farieda says:
when ?
farieda says:
):
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
tak tau la i
farieda says:
haih
farieda says:
carey da hilaannnng
farieda says:
jeng jeng
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
hahaha, i knoooow
farieda says:
babe, i gotta off
farieda says:
(:
farieda says:
see you sayang
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
aww, asal?
farieda says:
my sister needs to online
farieda says:
and pc kat bawah my brother's using
farieda says:
shessh
farieda says:
kaykay ?
farieda says:
love you
farieda says:
mwahmwah
Lily Alyssa<3 says:
love you too!

fafa, still not over it ?

I found this old post on my myspace blog (':

I dnt know why i posted this.

I guess im a lil too not ever it ?

Its been A year and A month Farieda, why arent you so over it yet ?

* It could be hard for me cause you know honey, with you i feel so comfy, and loved enough. and you made me feel so down-to-earth. How can i ever let go those ?

I was hoping that things get back together, I was wishing that there's still a door for me to go in and make a party inside it and make you happy everytime ,Im still hoping to hear yr voice every night before i close my eyes, If only i could hear you sing for me again, it would be perfect. But its fate that i couldn't forget you, Im happy with my life now, Im happy and proud of what you have now, Its just that i still cant let you get out of my mind . Er, if i were given a chance to have you back, ahhaa, i think i would keep you inside my heart, and make you stay here with me. Haih, what can i do, to deserve you in my life ? I wnna get over with all this, im just tired, (: I was wondering, will these feelings stay or it'll fly away one day ?If its gnna fly one day, i wnt it to be fast so that i wont love you this much nemore, (': I can say that im over you . But deep inside ? I dnt think i am. I really wnna get over you, so it wont hurt me so much, but what can i do ?

I am finding out that maybe I was wrong

That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone

Stay with me, this is what I need, please?

I am nothing now and it's been so long

Since I've heard the sound,

the sound of my only hope

This time I will be listening.

Sing me a song and i'll sing it back to you

I could sing my own but what would it be without you?

* i feel so happy that we chatted just now, double happier cause you greeted me first ((:

staying up ?

i slept at 7 am this morning ? :o
and woke up by 10 ? omg, thats so coool.
hahaha

today, i woke up with a smile on my face,( finally )
i remembered those jokes you used to say
it made me feel so happy
hearing you laugh is enough to make me smile
when you're not around my heart feels very messy and boring ?
will you just stay ?
or you'll be walking away ?

Nothing much happen these days.
Cause its a fasting month, we'll easily get tired
I am hungry all the time /':
I cant even sleep sometimes.
Thank god i have faidhi to accompany me. He's the only one who's always awake till morning until around 6 o'clock
ahaha, he keeps on calling me gile, and he totally reminds me of Hijaz.
He's nice, and he dnt do those stuffs that may spoil him.
No offence, i dnt mind if my friend drinks, or whatsoever, but its better if you dont rite ? (:

i am just bored.
haha, pfft -.-

i fell for what he said

even though his mind is a lil bit corrupted, :p
he didnt do all the things that he thinks is no good to him.
and he knows, that his parents never tought him to do all that


farieda says:
tah,
farieda says:
saje je kacau you
faidhi says:
emmmm
faidhi says:
have a nice day ngok
faidhi says:
hahaha
farieda says:
sesaat doh
farieda says:
takut lak i nak cht ngan you
faidhi says:
hahahaha
faidhi says:
baru u taw
faidhi says:
elakkan nnt i ajak u g gereja je
faidhi says:
farieda says:
i kuat iman doo
farieda says:
tak mcm orang TUU
farieda says:
clubbing je memanjang
farieda says:
isshh ish
faidhi says:
wey sory
faidhi says:
clubbing x main la
faidhi says:
i xg la tempat air kencing syaitan tu
farieda says:
hehhh ?
farieda says:
air kencing syaitan ?
farieda says:
eww omg
faidhi says:
yela
farieda says:
how do you kknow ? you can see ?
faidhi says:
arak
faidhi says:
air kencing syaitan la
faidhi says:
budak skolah ni
farieda says:
ohhhh
farieda says:
jap, you ni
faidhi says:
mcm mne nk ambik exam agama
farieda says:
baikk jugak en
faidhi says:
dah bole g anta u kat gereja dah
faidhi says:
hahahaha
farieda says:
hoiii
farieda says:
haha
farieda says:
so you takgi ah club club ?
farieda says:
minum ?
farieda says:
rokok pulak ?
farieda says:
tu asap kentut syaitan
faidhi says:
x g club x minum arak x rokok
farieda says:
alhamdulillah
faidhi says:
mak bapak i x penah aja i kot
faidhi says:
sape yg minum
faidhi says:
bapak dorg dlu x g skolah
faidhi says:
so sbb tu anak dorg bapak dorg xaja
farieda says:
ya alla
farieda says:
* yaa allah
farieda says:
sumpah i rasa terharu
farieda says:
bagus oh you
farieda says:
ii salute you, i mean respect ?
farieda says:
no wonder your face looks so pure
faidhi says:
respect xpe
faidhi says:
:D
farieda says:
hahah
farieda says:
but you social jugak kan ?
faidhi says:
social pon g gig je
faidhi says:
lepak2 kacau org
farieda says:
haha
faidhi says:
rogol anak org
faidhi says:
wahahahaha
farieda says:
tak sangka lak you suka rogol anak org
farieda says:
issh
farieda says:
teruk betul
farieda says:
tu taknak insaf lak ?
faidhi says:
hahaha
faidhi says:
xde la
faidhi says:
dosa kot
farieda says:
aww (':
farieda says:
you're makin my tears fall with every single word you say (':
farieda says:
i susahh jumpa org mcm you
faidhi says:
hahaha
farieda says:
so far i dah jumpa 4
faidhi says:
tu semua ayat manis u je
farieda says:
and i fell in love wit one ofthem
faidhi says:
bnyk lg kot org lg bagus dri i
faidhi says:
jajaja
farieda says:
serious ah
farieda says:
haaih
faidhi says:
yela awak
farieda says:
you might think imtoo young
faidhi says:
up to la
farieda says:
but i observe a lot (:
farieda says:
people nowdays,
faidhi says:
haha
farieda says:
teruk
faidhi says:
manis je ayat u
farieda says:
ish
faidhi says:
nk pikat i ke wey
faidhi says:
;p

a sign of love ?

Jealousy .
Hate .

are those few signs of love ?
if so, will it stay alive for the rest of our life ?
or its up to ourselves ?
how do we get rid of those ?
if only by building a new bridge or life, the way to get rid of those,
how do we do that ?

i am confused,
mixed with a lot of things nowdays.
Don't know who to trust, believe.
Don't know who should i go with or leave
Not sure of, which's right or wrong.
which is acceptable or unacceptable
capable or incapable


I want my lovely smiles and moments back again.
happiness, joyfulness

If only guys had edit buttons while girls have mute buttons
good times had a pause button and bad memories can be delete/erase easily
i think life would be perfect ?
dont you think so ?

byebyee <3
fafaisscrewedup ?

wonderful breakfast

I had to wake up early this morning because my mom wants to buy breakfast and eat breakfast with Uncle Madni and his family.
So, my mom woke us up ( my sister and me )
blabla, we dress up and yeah.
we went

Their house is at Subang.
Not really their house, but its their son's house. Altamash and Ghazali's .
They both live here. to study.

We had a nice conversation this morning.
seriously (:
and its nice to see Rumy was awake too :D
hahahaha.
But Altamash was still asleep. So i didnt get to see him.
We ate and we talk. We talk and we ate.
But im still hugry :9
haha

And now, Im at Taylors College.
I am waiting for my sister to finish her class.
I am going to Sunway Piramid later.
Jom?
Haha
I need CLOTHES baby.
and yeah, going ice skating too (:
with ariff.


bybyee
fafaisinthegoodmood :D

i feel so pure and happy

Okay,
I just came back from danish's house.
I am so glaaaad to see him and Ayesha and and the others !
oh my, everyone was there. it has been a while i didnt see those people i saw just now
first, the food was awesome ! :D i salute Aunty Sahrifah ( danish's mom )
and yeah, finally i didnt miss to taste Aunty Aza's superdelicious cupcakes.
ah (:

I met Uncle Madni and his family too.
Its not like every week i could see them
Cause they live in pakistan, and of course, they are pakistanians too.
I've been seeing Rumy and Faridah Zirek in pictures
I've never see them in real life before.
the last time i went pakistan when i was like whaaat, In my mom's stomach ?
haha

I tell you Rumy is so so cute !
ahaha, seeing their family truly made me smile and feel so pure ya know ?
They're so not like some typical muslims
Haih, Uncle Madni is so lucky to have such, humble, beautiful, charming, wife and children.
But they're going back to pakistan on 31st August ):


I'll be missing you guys (':
Insyaallah im going to Pakistan at the end of the year

moving on

i dont feel like what i feel before,
yeah, people change.
i keep on losing people that i love

I need my Happiness.
I need my Happy-go-lucky attitude back again.
I need my bitchiness
I need my Best friends
I need my Phone to be reload as soon as possible, everytime im out of crdit
I need my cheerleaders to cheer me up
I need my un-strict old dad
I need money to go shopping
I need a boyfriend who will always understands me
I need a real best friend for me to stick with
I need panadol
I need my beloved Teddy Bear, Orter
I need to watch Twilight again
I need to finish reading Eclipse book
I need to love my tortoise more
I need to be more confidence
I need to hang out with other friends

I HAVE TO TAKE BACK MY EVERYTHING
Im sick of waiting.
Im sick of sadness
i want happy stories that i could go with, ALL THE TIME
* sighs

Here's some activities i'll be doing today :

- Call Meyshna
- Call Ariff
- I'll be going to Danish's house later, so, i wont go to tuition
- I'll be hugging my brother Ali
- I'll tell my sister what happened today
- I choose so clothes to wear later and tomorrow since im going sunway with My sister & Ariff tomorrow
- I gotta finish my Sejarah Folio
- Call Meyshna again and say sorry
- Say hi to my dad -.-
- Watch Tv
- Text some people

more to be list.


byebye,
imnotinthegoodmood.
<3

mommy <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !





I love you <3
Even though sometimes, im being a lil rude to you, i still love you.
You've done so much for me and the family.
There's so much to say about you.

All i can say is,
Thank you so much for everything <3
(:

myself

I took a quiz from facebook ' What's your biggest Weakness ? '
Its just so true



You are often loved because of your outgoing and fun personality, and you like to give hugs and flirt, but underneath of it all you are lacking heart. You find it hard to love others through all the walls you've built around your heart from being hurt so much throughout life, but you want to love, you desperately want that fun, romance that you see in others, but you don't know if you can have it in your current circumstances. You want stability, but at the same time you need change. You go from one extreme to another and often feel overwhelmed when you can't figure out something. You think about your life often and how you can improve your character. You find it hard to settle, but you really want to. You just feel like you need to find that balance, that heart that you've been missing for so long. You need to love through the pain, but it's so hard. But the walls need to crumble for you to truly be YOU..


I am bored actually,
i've got nothing to do, I called Ariff, but he didnt pick up.

oh please, you're not that GRAND

i am angry, the anger took over me, so i am so sorry for my words ((: its your fault anyways, right ?
thank god i didnt use all in red colour

what the craap happened to you idiot ?
you were nice at first, stupid me, to believe in all that

excuse me, you're telling me all that,
please, mirror yourself, you're not that rich or grand as well (:
do you realize that ?
NO ?

ohhh let me tell you more.
I just want you to know that, some single girls, just wanna have fun liking dudes puposely
so i guess thats me (:
do you get what i mean ?
sometimes, we're bored of being in a relationship, so we tend to, like dudes, PURPOSELY.
i admit,
sometimes,
i will only have a crush on a guy for like about 2 hours, few days, or just FEW MINUTES.
so, takpayah lah, awaak nak perasan sangat(:
i suka you suka suka je kay ?
if you nak i suka you betul betul, haha, MAKE ME.
but i wont fall your SWEET LOVING CARING, DROP DEAD MELTING words again.
i dnt want to think , like you're just the same as you're friend tu.
you know who.
(:

I am sorry for all of the such hurting words.
i didnt mean to, HAHA
dnt ever think that i cant be bitchy, i know laah, i used to be a bitch. weee

Anyways, forget that.
Oh yeah, people, my sister said MTV WORLD STAGE was increditbility aweesome shiiit.
missed it that i didnt get to go, no ticket ):
well, thats okay, i stil have next timeeee :D
weeee

i watched this video,
got this from alef's youtube.
i just feel like crying for not being thereeeee
)':

omgggggg !

lagi lah i benci my sister :p
hahahahaha
she's at my ex's house !
damnit hate herrr
arghh

here goes the story,
my sister is going to the MTV World Stage, and her friend is picking her up
so her friend, a guy, wants to pick up his girlfriend at Gombak,
And yeah, my sister entered the house jugak.
All of sudden, she texted me, she asked, ' Eh your N**** tinggal dekat mane eh ? '
i couldnt reply her cause i have no credit, so i called her.
and she's guessing she's at N****'s house.
i was screaming all the way in the phone.
i asked her how does he looks like and all :O
she told me and yeah, CONFIRMED its him !

after a while, she texted me again,
she said, she thinks she's in the car with him
:O
i wonder what if i followed my sister earlier
i really wanna see how will he react, seeing me in his own house
sit in the same car hahaha
ohh pig ass
MISSED IT !
i should have just accepted the ticket that he offered me
well, there's A BIG reason why didnt i accept his offer ):
i really regret.
haaaaih, what a bad, terrible day Farieda.

unlucky

i've never been this desperate before,
never ever.
i've been wanting to go to this concert
tried to get the ticket
but i still didnt get any tickets
* big sighs *

last night, i cried
while finding out some ways to get the ticket
you wont know how much i wanted to go there
i even dreamt about i cried so much, until my eyes bleed just to go to a place ( its blurry in my dream )
and i know what place is that, sunway lagoon, mtv world stage

this morning,
i cried again
i rush downstairs and grab the house phone and called Erin
she calmed me down
and perhaps we're going out, right babe ! :D
haaaaah,
i feel better now, but i still want to go to the world stage

FAFA WANTS TO GO TO THE WORLD STAGE,
BUT SHE HAS NO FREAKING IDEA HOW THE HECK TO GET THE EFFING TICKET

p/s : Wan Azrie, i hate you the most, for temporary
cause you have the back stage pass

what a good night baby

as usual, on fridays night i will always go swimming (:
not always, but er, often.
i am always with Erin every fridays

me and erin will do nothing the the pool, just sit in the pool and talk about stuffs had happened to us.
seriously ahhaha. we'll just laugh our heads off after talking about stupid stuffs.
so just now, i went on Erin's back and so she turn round and round, she asked me to close her eyes laah, tell her where to go lah. haha, i love you girl <3
after that, i saw two pretty girls with a boy with them
and it was Alia, Edlyn, and Aiman (:
tengok tengok Alia je swim, Aiman pergi gym, Edlyn taknak swim
so alia joined us, we talked about almost everything.
i think we're really getting closer everytime we meet
ohmy, i really miss && love you babe.
you, edlyn and aiman :p
tapi i didnt see Aiman puuun ! )):

haaaah, one night is not enough for us,
never enough i guess (:
we should have a sleepover someday yeah ?
ahaha, i miss Nadiah, Nadia Dali, Jaiza, Amalyna too.
i was expecting they were there too, bt they weren't there.

i finally miss you ;p

barnie (':

ahahaha,
okay, first of all, i knew this dude from.. er myspace.
and i lovvveee him.
he's quite cute and i love his eyes (:
he's not too short but he's skinny.
haha. I used to call him barnie.
we used to be a pair of scandal, but we're friends now (:
he knows my sister too.
i am missing him right now.
i seriously gotta see him :D

radzman reminds me of him (:
they look alike.

danial, i wonder when can we see each other again ?
i know it'll be hard cause you gotta study for spm right ?
* sighs

i still remember what you're having.
you told me.
and im still keeping it as a secret.
take care danial (:
i miss you.

stupidity

hahaha,
ignore the previous post.
ah, maybe dont :p
watch it.

so today, i woke up around .. 11 ?
haaaih, the house is full with girls :P
hahaha, since my uncle ( young uncle ) brought his girlfriend here. (:
ramai lagi lah girls in this house (:
she's nice but tak cakap banyak like i do :/
thats so boringg, hahaha.

dnt know what to do, seriously.
ali wants me to be at safa later.
:S
taknaklaah.
i wanna go somewhere with erin.
:D
swim lagii ? ho yeah.
every friday night
jom join ?

wonderful (':

New Moon trailer
* cant wait for this !



Fred
* he's my love. ahaha.



Taylor Swift / parody
* haha, funnnyy, i got this from erin's page at myspace.

a conversation with you

if i was given a chance to talk to you,
see you everyday,
my life would be brighter ?
and i think it could possibly be the same as it was before,
i smile every single day,
i laugh
just like how it used to be

i really dont know why it all went away
people say ' as we grow older, happiness turns to sadness '
i seriously dont believe in that sentences
but why am i feeling it that way now ?

i wanna be closer to you,
i want to know more about you
i want to be a person that you're scared to lose

oh lord, i wonder why am i having this kind of feelings towards him ?

* do you know who you are ?

* giggles * NO WAY

Here goes the story.
* sighs
I really hate this, haha

MOMOT : i really wanna see you again (:

DODOT : aha, you will, I'll be around (:

MOMOT : without f*****, uh i hate him

DODOT : well, im the opposite of f*****, i only do something if it really means something to me

MOMOT : hahaha

MOMOT : he treated me, like im a freaking prostitute ):

DODOT : awww (:

DODOT : dont say that

MOMOT : good to hear that

DODOT : you not a prostitute

DODOT : hahaha

MOMOT : inform me if you're at OU (:

DODOT : sure but i have exam this week (:

MOMOT : i seee.

BLAABLAAA
SKIP SKIP SKIP

MOMOT : :(

MOMOT : i ..

MOMOT : i ..

DODOT : :D:D


DODOT : yesss?

MOMOT : hahaha

MOMOT : uhh,

MOMOT : i just cant say it

DODOT : say what you want to say

DODOT : hahah

DODOT : i cant make you say it

DODOT : its all in you

MOMOT : * no, stop it, dnt say it

DODOT : hahaha

DODOT : make it fast, i gtg dah

MOMOT : i .. l-l-love you ?

MOMOT : UGH, goddamit

DODOT : hahaa

MOMOT : * immediately says * i love you bye

MOMOT : :o:o

MOMOT : shit

MOMOT : i am sorry

DODOT : i love you too?

DODOT : hahaha

DODOT : its okayh

MOMOT : i am so so sorry

DODOT :i will get used to it

DODOT :its okayh

DODOT : no worries

MOMOT : you wont like this

MOMOT : byee

DODOT : (:

DODOT : uh

DODOT : you dont know me

DODOT : I can deal with it

MOMOT : love you

MOMOT : ....

DODOT : love you too

MOMOT : bye

MOMOT : shiiiiiiiit


Could not connect to Facebook Chat at this time.

DODOT :take care

DODOT :haha

DODOT :dont be afraid

MOMOT : i am sorry, take care

DODOT : sleep tight and gd luck fr your exam tomorrow

MOMOT : you too

Haaaaiiihhhh.

* aaron johnson <3

asshole :p

haha, i am bored
did not go to school today.
(:
i have nothing to do at home -.- * sighs
my mom doesnt let me out. dayem.
all i do is, cam whore.
uggggggh, i miss everyone NOW.
E V E R Y O N E !
My best friends, friends, cheerleaders, MAGG ! ( my coach )

question for Mag : dear mag, when can we see you again ?
i am missing you, your torture-ness
and your laughs, scolding and stuffs

haha, if only you could hear me (':
i also miss my captain <3
aaaaah, You've been a good and responsible captain (:

okay, i better stop crapping. before i can't stop. haha

alright, toodles people !
<3

restless

Yesterday i spend some quality time with my mom and my sister Aisha.
We wnet One Utama to buy some er .. undergarments. haha
and we walk and we walk aaand bought some clothes.
Only god knows how tiring it was to walk the whole mall, here and there, patah balik lah,
hahaha, i still love it tho.
looking at those new clothes in every shops.
my favourite shops especially.
we went home around 10.40pm.
and yeah, not to mention, finally i dah dapat makan all of the foods that i've been craving for, missing and what-so-ever.
aaaaaah, i feel so heavy now :D


so todaaaay, school is no fun lah today :/
geeeez, and everyone is scarying me,most of them are wearing mask already.
stuuupid h1n1, swine flu ! )':
pleaaaaaaase, go away. will you ?

after school,
around 5pm, io went to syusyu's place.
She needs someone to accompany her since her mom is not in.
so, i went there and she wants to see Farhan
we walked to the taman nearby, with few " challenges" HAHAHAHA
lari dari anjing ! ewww, they are seriously scaary too :o
and finally i get to see Ali (':
he wants to get back wth me, but i said its not the right time YET, he keeps on asking.
until i say i promise i will come back, he suddenly looked away and walked away.
i called his name for several times but he didnt answer, not even look back.
i pulled syusyu and walk away too.
5 minutes later, he sent me a msg. and i pun terasa gilaa.
seriously. uhhh, he just dnt get it.

aaaaaah, i hate thinking about relationships ..
its just, stressing me more and more.

someone by my side

I did not go to school today
i feel so weak
i thought of going swimming and relax my mind
but i feel so tired

I am supposed to be at my sister's college, wait for her class to end
and go sunway together
to help her find some clothes for her orientation dinner
but she left me -.-

I AM SO BORED !
I wanna go somewhere, with someone by my side to cheer me up
i wanna be in his kelisa car again,
laughed at his words.
tapi, dia mesti tengah tidur punyaaa -.-

except happiness

again,
I feel everything except happiness
loneliness, crushed,
where did it all go ?
i dnt know.
Why dnt i know ?
Because i feel so dead without anyone right here beside me to cheer me up

I wanted to be alone, but i just can't
i wanna smile, every time like how i use to
but thats not happening again
I wanna be with my old friends,
and be who i am, truly i am
so close together,
with Tania, Lily, Carey, Harith, Meysh, Erin, Jadri,
unfortunately, we're all separated
* sigh *
all i do nowdays, hearing the crickets sing, birds chipping here and there,
dogs barking, ants moving every single second
* sigh *

I miss everything,
cheermates, old friends, the old Meysh and Erin
and ...
The old dotdotdot.
I shouldn't have loved him this much
i am broken.
I had enough, i dnt want to spend my days with this heart broken,
I want some worth noises to help me out
I hate being heart broken and i hate to be mean
I guess i troubled you, a lot.
you came to my house that night
with your sleeveless covered with sweater, three quarter pants.
just because of im sulking with you and bored
* sigh *
We're friends, but i dnt know why im having this lil crush towards you.

I feel friendless

I dont feel well, I need some space to be alone, away from everyone.
Im just so shock after reading that. I feel so broken now. And i give up.

So,
basically, i had fun few days back
but i dnt know what exactly happened today.
I was enjoying my day at first, but it all went wrong all of sudden.
starting from the dodge ball match
for your information, i entered dodge ball match, haha, how cool is that huh ?
I didnt know how to play at first, but after asking few people about it, im getting into it
So i played, and heck yeeess it was so fun,
unntiiiiiilllll ...... that idiotic chinese boy from meranti class threw the ball and it hit my head >(
grrrr, ohmygod, heck yes its fun to play but when this happens, oh gosh it hurts like heck.
I was so close to fall down at that time, but i stand still and stand outside of the line.
everyone was like asking am i alright because the saw the ball hit my head and it went up so high.
HAHA. baaaastard, sakit laah pigass !
-.-

And after school, we have koko.
I went mcd for lunch, and everyone was there,
pastu, habis laaah,
Erin and meysh nampak adam.
gaduh lagi )':
eeeugggggh, is it so fun to gaduh ?
i pun nak gaduh ah :P
haha.

So we walked back in a very tight kind of situation,
semua pissed off.
Me too cause of what adam did to erin.
Even azriel pun ada probs, roeshan, its like a very bad day you know :s
I really hate today.
i even left my school bag at school until Aunty Su had to patah balik.
heehehe.

Bila balik rumah pulak, i called hijaz and asked him to cheer me up with his stupidity :P
haha, his words will make you laugh, seriously.
then online, ym.
But after that, i found out something that really pissed me off, UNTIL NOW.
I dnt think i can smile tomorrow or tonight.

so thats all i could blog about.

bye, hate you.

full of passion

oh well, ignore the tittle :P

Today, went to school as usual,
A day with Mimi, Zahir, Amir the shorty and others would be totally awesomeee shiiiit !
hahahaa, like DUUH.
we ( me and mimi ) wrote a " love letter " to Amir (':
eee, tolonglah we were just playing.
haha. He replied it with full of passion ! haha, kesiaaan, layan sajalah Amir..
Not much happened at school today,
oh oh, fyi, i entered Dodgeball :P whaa do ya think yo ?

We finished school at 2.30
went back home, i called meysh and discuss with her about transport, macam mana nak pergi makan with Amelia, a friend of mine which just came back from Abu Dhabi and going back there on this thursday.
So yeah, bergayut for lil whie, then found our transport.
We talked heck lots of craaaaps, kesian Amelia.
We still had fun
But, lily couldnt make it to makan makan thingi.

After makan, we finished around .. 6 ?
then we went to padang, lepak padang for lil while.
Invited lily to the padang since her house is near by the padang.
I was expecting my latest ex dekat situ, which is Ali <3
I called him but there was no answer, daaayem
He has been wanting to see me since two weeks ago dah. Tapi i ashik busy.
But, it was another ex of mine yang ada, Danial Zharif (:
aaaaaawh, i miss him.
We talked and talked, jalan jalan, gelak gelak with Lily, Amelia, Meysh and Jaja.
I texted Adam, but he refused to come cause he faught with Jaja and Meysh.
adam doesnt want to meet them );
ohh shiznuts :/

But still best gilaaa cakap dengan Lily (:
I love you guys :D

agaaaaaain, i'll upload those pictures soon.
malassss nak maatiiii nak upload.
Infact, those pictures ada dalam camera Jaja (:
Thanks to her camere.

Thats all people, bye !
mwahmwah

nothing can ever come between us

shizzzles.
Today, i am supposed to be at One Utama with Ariff and his cousin including his brother Taqib (:
But i couldnt make it cause it was a last minute plan, uhh ):
sorry Ariff, but i promise, we'll go ice skating together, soon ! :D

Oh yeah, i am drop dead bored.
sooo, when boredom strikes, and when sisters unite, we tend to do stupid stuffs, haha.
Aisha decided to sing and record.
So she tag me along. haha, aaduuh, my voice can sedap ( EEEEYUUUCCCK MY BUTTHOLE LAH )
Oh yeaaah, we sang two, three songs just now, and heccck yes we had fun and laughed our ass off like stupidos.
aaah, i love her <3
We recorded everything, lupa lyrics, everything ada.
aah, i am so proud to have her maaan.
everything dapat :D
hahahaa,
Go shopping together, spend up all of her money :P
Share clothes and stuffs with her :D i love you Aisha <3
She has also been the " second mother " to me.
she gives my alot of advices just like a sister should

I am freakingly happy and back to normal,
So YOU, big pathetic idiotic moron bastard, dnt ever spoil my mood . ( echeeeh main main je )
:D

p/s : i'll upload the pictures later, cause fafa nak tiduuuuur

goodnight people !
mwah mwah

its not love

There's no point if everytime you talk to me, you're just making me mad
How can i ever go back to you ?
Dont ever ask me when are we getting together
Its you !
You never give me some space ( sorry )
Then what's the point we're not together now ?