except happiness

again,
I feel everything except happiness
loneliness, crushed,
where did it all go ?
i dnt know.
Why dnt i know ?
Because i feel so dead without anyone right here beside me to cheer me up

I wanted to be alone, but i just can't
i wanna smile, every time like how i use to
but thats not happening again
I wanna be with my old friends,
and be who i am, truly i am
so close together,
with Tania, Lily, Carey, Harith, Meysh, Erin, Jadri,
unfortunately, we're all separated
* sigh *
all i do nowdays, hearing the crickets sing, birds chipping here and there,
dogs barking, ants moving every single second
* sigh *

I miss everything,
cheermates, old friends, the old Meysh and Erin
and ...
The old dotdotdot.
I shouldn't have loved him this much
i am broken.
I had enough, i dnt want to spend my days with this heart broken,
I want some worth noises to help me out
I hate being heart broken and i hate to be mean
I guess i troubled you, a lot.
you came to my house that night
with your sleeveless covered with sweater, three quarter pants.
just because of im sulking with you and bored
* sigh *
We're friends, but i dnt know why im having this lil crush towards you.