Whenever i read this ,

When i read this back, i cant believe im so stupid to do that to you.

" i will change for you.
just dont leave me...
i wish..
u and me.
on the hill...
we were walking..
holding hands...
u looked at me and sayed.
'where are we going?'
i turned and sayed
'where ever the wind bring us'
u smiled and blushed...
u slip ur hands and grabbbed mind tighter
as if u will never let it go.
i hold the tears in my eyes.
we went to a hill..
the dark sky shatters the soft mood..
it suits ur skin.
we layed at the soft green grass..
u leaned on my chest with ur hair...
all over my torso...
u turned closer towards me..
i hugged u and kissed u...
u stopped.
the fear of u disgusted by me ran across my mind.
u went and slowly reached towards my chick..
ur soft tender voice..
whispered..'i love you,dont leave me'
i was stunned.
tears start to pour down my eyes..
u sayed 'why are u crying?'
the wind blew...i replied
'i..i....love you'
you hugged me closer..
i felt the soft suiting heat warming my body....
tears dropped more..
i want to tell u..
wat the doctor said..but i couldnt..
i just couldnt..
i glare towards u and stare at u..
appreciating the moment...speechless.
looking at u comortably leaning,sleeping beside me.
i kissed u and we closed are eyes..
hoping the night could last forever..
u slept..quietly.
time passed and u woke up..
u pushed my hand aside..
and called upon my name.
i kept quiet.
and u saw a note.
in my hand.
baby..
im sorry..
the doctor said..the hole in my lung
grew to much.
he said i couldnt live more than..
haha
i decide to spend my time with u...
thank you..thank you.
im sorry i couldnt say goodbye.
it hurts..ur my cure.
baby,dont cry...pls
u mad me happy to the end sayang.
i love you
goodbye. "

Memories are left.

xx