Lastnight was terrible. I had to go through the pain alone. Honestly, i really miss you.

I really need to talk to you. Why are we not talking to each other? I thought there was a deal. You promised me. But you broke it.

: could you promise me something ?

: Yes of course baby, what is it ?

: If we ever .. break up, can you promise me not to stop loving me?

: I will always love you. I could never love a girl like you again. That i can promise

: Cause i have this feeling, that if i ever break with you, i think im gonna come bck for you.

: I love you, i could feel that you're gonna leave me

: Please, dont say that. If i ever do that, I am so so terribly sorry.

: I love you

: I love you too

I dont know whats up with me now. Its like, back to one. Everyone knows that im over you. But its sorta different now. These feelings are killing me. I dont want this to keep going on. I need to learn how to let go things. This are reallllly different without you. Really.

I just gotta let go.

2 days ago, my sister found a couple's blog. Both of em share a blog.

My gosh, that dude is soooo sweeeet. Beyond sweet k ! I keep on saying "THIS DUDE IS SO SWEET " everytime i read whatever he writes. Comeeeeeeel gila. ((((((';

I cant stand reading it nemore. How i wisssssh i have a boyfriend like that.

?

my dad wants me to cover my head

my mom doesnt really mind

when i go out with abah ; cover rambut

when i go out with ibu ; tak cover rambut

you wanna bitch about me?

mirror yourself first, Bitch

not a good mood, someone came and knock my mood down. pfft, lifeless.

Ive got so much to say. But i dont know which to share, which to write it here.

I decided to clean/tidy up my room yesterday. I kept a big box under my bed. Which my mom told me to keep papers, and wrappers in it. So it'll be easier. Then i decided to open that box. I never thought that i would find so many memories with you in that box. I told myself that its over. And it'll never come back. But how i really wish i could change the past.

Soooo, last night during Earth Hour i didnt really go anywhere. No spirit of celebrating it. Cause, since my neighbours pun tak turn off the lights. -__-'

Around 2 in the morning, i suddenly woke up. And there was like 5 missed calls, 5 msgs from different people.

So i stay awake. Nabil texted me like all of sudden. We texted like until 3 something in the morning. Ariff texted me as well. He was in the hospital accompanying his grandpa. He complained that he couldnt sleep. poor thing. Tak tidur 2 hari.

nothing much for today,

toodles

i fckingly need a damn capo

desperately

Ive been secretly liking you. Ive been keeping this as a secret. Ive been dreaming about you. Ive been thinking about you. Ive been always looking at your pictures. Ive been trying to stop thinking about you all the time. Ive been having dreams about you. Ive been loving you. And i like it that, you dont even know a thing about this.

I am secretly liking you.

Hi lovely, I love you. (';

today, first thing, I miss Ariff and friends in school (;

I woke up quite late today. So i skipped school. Actually, i did go to school, but then there were sooo many prefects, and Salmizan was at the tapak perhimpunan. Nanti, tak pasal pasal she scream to me in front of everyone.

So i asked my dad to drop me off at sekolah rendah. Tengok tengok the small gate was locked. And few of the students saw me, and they were screaming to Mr Doh saying that i ponteng. So thennn, i walked away, called my mom to pick me up, and waited for 30 minutes.

bad day bad day.

Righht, so, my dad arent into guitars. At first, he disagree of me buying a guitar. But my mom was fine with it.

For a week, he did not put his finger on my guitar. And finally today, i caught him with my guitar in my sister's room xD

He was strumming the guitar while referring to the book. I got you dad, got you :b

March Birthdays .

Happy Belated Birthday to JUSTIN BEIBER ! ;'D

Happy Belated Birthday to Raja Nazrin, my dear "Personal Assistant"

Happy Belated Birthday to Emir Shafiq

Happy Belated Birthday to my handsome Adi Niezam ((;

Happy Belated Birthday Birthday to Razzan Rosli my "Daddy"

Happy Belated Birthday to Alia Ameera ! <3>

Upcoming

Ammar Shauqi's Birthday

Sabrina's Brithday

Jaiza's Bithrday

LILY ALYSSA'S BIRTHDAY :D

One minute i feel fine, one minute i feel miserable.

Im lost. Totally.

I need and want to be happy goddamnit.

Please, Pleaaaase, dont act like you're a Rockstar. Or whatsoever.

Cause you cant be it.

I dont wanna hate you,

and dont you make me hate you

lets begin with, me?

Today, school was just fine. Nothing fun happened. We had 2 free periods, which was 2 periods before finishing school.

Aaron was bored, so he pulled me to Razzan's table and started to play " Chi Ku Pang " HAHA

daaaaamn funny.

Then, Meyshna and Lucas joined, and Erin. So five of us are like the noisiest in the class. We played truth and dare like faaarrrk. Superrr fun.

After school, there was a big fight in front of the school. I have no idea whyyyy, but one chinese dude was bleeding like hell.

The funny thing, Abbas got stung by a bee ! HAHA. Tuu la, ejek i lagiiiii :p

Whatever it is, i still feel sorry for youh. Remember! Next time jangan ejek Fafa anymore :p

Then during koko, me and meysh walked to Group Base for lunch. Shasha, Arham and Raja Nazrin joined us.

Looking at Shasha and Arham, annnnd Raja Nazrin, alalalalala, best friends paling comel k ! ((('';

k, nothing much to say. (:

toodles.

He's my ex's cousin. And i just looove seeing him smile. Soooooo tiiiuuuttt. HAHA

He's really nice to me. He'll call me when i need someone to lay on to, and when me and Ariff got probs.

Thaaaaaaaaanks for being there (;

Before going to bed, tears came out

Before listening to the recording, tears came out

After waking up in the morning, going to school, tears came out

Sitting alone in the room, tears came out

89% of it are all because of you. You.

Today, when i came back from school, i straight away took the laptop and put it in my room.

Then fake a smile.

by 6 something, i received a text message from this guy.

And it was a picture, a Real farking smile popped on my face. And my eyes were filled by tears. A picture of him at the gym, Shirtless .

I replied with happy birds/ladybugs/rabbit and segala benda on my head.

... it was Ariff ! ;''''DDD

He went rock climbing for the past few days. And broken his arm muscles. :/ ouch .

Sad to hear that. Get well soon Ariff (;

You know i really really care a bout you.

You mean a lot to meeeeee. Teehee.

: * not smiling, not talking that much, moody *

: what's wrong with you?!

: i hate it when you ask me that

: then stop being moody !

Dont force me to smile. Cause i dont wanna fake my smile.

And because i just feel so weak.

you know who you are

Today was just a normal day, not that fun nor exciting to me. Perhaps a bit cheered up, when i was at school.

I feel like ive lost someone that ive been depending on. Like ive totally lose a really special human in my life.

My day feels so empty without him. Who else could it be if its not Ariff. Yeah, him.

He replied my msgs, but, not the same as before. Whats happening? Whats this?

There's noone else could say ' i love you ' like the way you do. No one.

Usually, in each of every day, you were the only one who will be saying " Take care, i love you baby " then " I love you, remember that word. Take care "

" I miss you " " I love you sweetheart " and etc.

I thought, when i got my guitar, you could teach me how to play with it. But looks like we need time for each other.

i really really miss you dude

ahh, sorry for being a lil emo today.

now,

i think,

i feel a bit

down

because

of you.

you're not here

and that's

the saddest thing ever, to me

Okaaaaay, i should really stop opening more tabs just to view something that has to do with you. I dont wanna get addicted to you. Really.

I think i have a small, tiny insy winsy crush on someone.

Or maybe its just that i like seeing your face with a perfect smile on it?

boomchickawawwaw

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im Fafa & im 14. was born on the 21st January. what i want now is a guitar, and become a skater.

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I

Finally

Have

A

Guitar

Now, i need to demand/request for something else :D

Abah, im sorry to pack up your head, but i want them so badly.

First ; New Cellphone please

Second ; A Skateboard

Third ; Supra shoe

First of all, heheh. I feeeeeeeeel soooooo sorrryyyyyy for Shafiq Murad for his broken shoulder :S

He's a drummer, and i wonder how would his band survive without a cute drummer like him. HAHAH. Sorry sorry, Get Well Soon yah ! ((:

Sooooo far, he has been putting a smile on my face. Well, Ariff my bestbestfriend is no longer beside me. He's away for a little while ): Things are reaally bad between us right now. haih.

I. Just. Cant. Face. This.

I. Need. You. Ariff.

Rigggggght, so today sooo many weird things happened. Not really. But quite a lot compared to the other days.

In Bandar Sri D'Sara, theres one car fell in a huuuuuugee drain. I think it happened this morning ? It is scary. The car got crashed damn bad. Poor thing ):

I went out with Erin again. Planned to finish our maths and bm homeworks. Finished our maths, but not bm. Malaaaaass (;

Sorry Meysh for not replying your message. Cause i know, if i say i havent done the bm homework, you would scream your heads.off and kill.me.

My uncle is going for Umrah tomorrow. Mom is forcing me to skip school, again. Its not that i dont wanna send him and yada yada. Its just that i dont wanna miss maths, again. I need to focus on my maths mooooom. Not that i dont wanna saaaay goodbye. But i could still salam him, wish him for him trip tomorrow morning kan.

Right, thats all for now.

Toodles.

Three little birds, sat on my window.
And they told me I don't need to worry cause ;

ehhh dude i think your cute bomchickkawowwwoww

*wink

Current addiction ;

I found him on myspace, a long long long time ago. 2 years back i guess.

And his first song that i kept in my heart was, If The Moon Fell Down Tonight

Watch me sleep baby.

I did a lil gardening just now. I helped my mom with her plants, vases and beloved guppies -___-'

My mom love her guppies like hell. Really. She was like " jangan la kasar kasar. Nanti mati, poor thing la ! "

Then one minute later, i played with her guppies in the bigggg wide vase. Then she was like " Issssh, nanti mati la my guppies, poor thing ! "

Then, bila balik sekolah, she would always peek on her guppies and say " aww, my guppies lawa laa, dah ada babies lagi tu "

Loooord, * drool eyes . Its better if you love me that way :b

Im sorry that i let you lift up the vases alone. I cant lift up heavy things oready. My back is getting even more sensitive, day by day. And now i know why wont you let me in cheer. ):

One day we're like that. And now, our relationship is having a lil gap in between.

I love you so much. I don't want to ever lose you. Every text i received, i wish it was you. Asking How am i, telling stories about your school, your outings. It used to be that way. But now, things arent that fun anymore. Serious, serious and serious. Everything were cool between us.

he thinks this way ;

- i ditched him

- i ignored him

- i dont care about him anymore

- i treated him bad

Well, i know things arent that fine between us right now. But i know we could always fix it. We always can. We could always solve things properly. I love you. You know that, we both know that we both love each other. I care about you. Like .. alot. More than almost everything. But sometimes, you're too stubborn. I cant help it.

It has always been me, to give and take, me to inform you this and that. A relationship wont work if only one person is trying hard. And it hurts me when you're starting to get harsh with me. I dont like it. I know that we're bestfriends, but somehow, there's a jealousy feeling in me, when i see you can be just fine with other girls.

Okay, i dont really mind about the girl thingi, but its the fact that, you're different with them and me.

Perhaps we've been close friends for quite a long time huh? But we should be even more closer.

I really really miss things between us. I miss the way you strum your guitar for me, sing with me, your silly jokes that could make me laugh till i get stomach ache, the fatherly attitude. Everything, ariff.

I dont wanna lose you. Because i depend on you a lot. Im sorry if ive offended you. Now, i wanna make things right.

Aiman Zal Ariff, i love you a lot.

Ulii Azman If you're skinny, people will call you anorexic. If you're intelligent, people will call you a smartass. If you are pretty, people will call you fake. No matter what, people will always find something wrong with you. The trick? Just don't give a fuck.

i got that from Ulii's status on Fb. Aint this true ?

i suddenly have an interest in drumming

drum or guitar lesson ?

Things arent quite fine to me these days. Im feeling insecure. But i dont know why. Nothing can calm me, Only Chase Coy's songs could do. Well at least theres something to calm me down, for now. I am scared, for my maths. Im not improving. Well, yes a bit. But i gotta be smarter. God, give me a smart brain, please.

I must say, ive lost my faith in everything. Almost, Everything. Nothing seems fun to me, now. Its weird.

Ive been letting my feelings to control me. Which is bad. I dont know what else to do. I gotta do something.

But i gossip/talk about guys more. I just gotta admit that -__-'

Normal to me, but perhaps not to you. Sebab kau, otak Kuno. Sorry.

By the way, now i have a new housemate. His name is, Humphrey. At least now Rufus ada gang.

Well, technically, Rufus is slightly bigger than Humphrey. But its funny to see that Rufus is sorta running away from Humphrey. *thumbs up

see you later, aligator. <3

Ariff, i want you to know that, i dont feel close to you anymore. We used to text each other everyday. And i keep on telling you every single thing i do. I keep on complaining to you about things. You used to call me everynight, everytime when you're bored. Even if nak mandi pun, cakap. Now, i dont tell you lots of thing nemore. I miss you, i miss you, i really really miss you. You were always the reason why i smile. You make me feel happy and safe when i feel like the world's crashing down. You've always been there for me. But things are a lil different now. I wonder why. Maybe we should spend more time together.I need you now. Really.

♥♥

i swear to god, this dude looks Exactly like Elrieq Haris :p

God, i tried and still trying to stop thinking about you, day and night.

I keep dreaming about having you again. Which is impossible. Where are you?

Todaaaaay, i saw many people that i know on FB at Perfection. I had extra class today, same goes as the form threes. Nothing much to talk about. But i feel like letting something out of my chest. Im just not so sure what is it.

My mood was greaaaaaaaaat. Absolutely great. Really. And some bastard came and spoiled it.

I am super tired. Gotta do the house chores, since takda bibik kan. Elder sis got class, third sis langsung takboleh harap, forth bro, hampeh, mmg tak boleh. So theres only me who could really do the house chores and whatsoever. Supposedly pergi Sunway, ice skating with Ariff. But fck, canceled. Ive got stuffs to do, mom's not free. And Ariff gotta go for a surprise party.

So the plan has been changed on this sunday. Maybe? On Saturday going to Shah Alam with Erin's family for Skytrex. Mom and my sister will be there as well. But masalahnya, apesal taknak confirm on what day nak pergi? In the end mesti my plan must be canceled. Grr. Very Frustrating. VERY.

Tadi Aisha went out for dinner with Qis and Naressa. I forgot to remind her to make sandwich for dad before he comes home. Tengok tengok, dia tiba tiba nak keluar dinner. Yang aku lupa nak remind. shoot. gaaahhh.

So me, myself is like fck cause lupa jugak to prepare the sandwich. Then my dad balik. Rush to the kitchen and prepare the sandwich.

Tiba tiba mom called. She was like, why didnt you tell aisha to prepare the sandwich. I said i forgot. And she was pissed she said no more outing! waaataaafaaak. ):

But at least i made 5 pairs of sandwiches in like about 10 minutes kan. -__-'

Erin has a much more bigger problem actually. I feel sorry for her. Hope you're feelin better. I wonder what are you doing right now, cause i know how much it hurts. Get better soon, dont be too sad (:

I love you baby

Bad day.

Ariff, i need you now.

I want my boyfriend to be as fun as fuck. Laugh, drunk all night long. I want him to make me feel like the world is mine. Then bring me to a place than noone has ever been to. Make me feel like, im the best. Kiss me without me noticing. Bring me out and treat me like his bestest friend everrr. Not to be too protective. Love me like no body's fcking business. Back me up in everything. Help my mom with her garden. Help my dad to clean his car. Help me with my homeworks. Gosh, how i wish.

current addiction for food ;

i want more, give me more. Now, MORE ! i said, now. please.