"Jar of Hearts" - Christina Perri (Sam Tsui Cover)

This is for you.

...

Oh lord this is too much.

I dont feel like doing it. I dont feel like proceeding it now.

What is wrong with me ?!

Maybe i had enough of waiting. Or maybe its something else.

Im havin mixed feelings. Thats baad.

" We flirted, we texted, we laughed, we cried, i stayed up JUST to talk to you, i changed for you and you "loved" me for it.. then out the blue you tell me it's over.. noww we don't even talk and everyday i have to convince myself i don't still love you cause i know i do and will always love you :/ ♥ "

Im scared that one day, this might come to us cause im really happy with you now.

Words cannot be trusted 100% right ?

But i love the way you make me feel. Like everyday, i wake up with a smile on face.

And im always smiling even when i look at the sky. I feel crazy sometimes but pfft yeah, thats the truth.

Sometimes when Meysh see me smiling alone, she would say im crazy. Even Syu would say the same thing.

Im not trying to say that Superman is imposing my ex. But, i compare alot. Thats the bad part of me.

Y'know i dont want this to happen, like i dont want my mind to think this way ' He calls me whenever he says he WILL ' or maybe ' He's the most retarded guy ive ever met, and yet i still love him '

Its over and i dont wanna go through it ever again. Ive changed. And im happy with where i am right now.

Feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelin soo flaaai like a geeeeeeeeesix.

xx

Seeing him tired makes me feel tired too.

Im glad i finally went to Bently Music, and changed my guitar strings.

My guitar looks so brand new ! Kay, abit jakun here, well you know, i havent changed the strings in like about 2 - 3 years ? And i just cant take my hands off my guitar.

My dad is not at home, he has his Cricket Tournament. Somewhere in Pahang. And the saddest thing is, he took the ipad with him. I miss taptap revenge 4. I swear to god its addictive. This is baaad, i should be studying.

Im super bored. Feelin so lifeless. I need Superman here. Now. Yeah now :/

I miss you.

xo

Superman is just a replacement name*

So here it is.

I met a guy named Superman* . I gotta admit, i fell for his looks & he way he dressed up. Not much but yeah. Its kinda a love at first sight kinda thang y'know.

So, we chatted on fb. Like every single goddamn day.

I dont remember how it started. But yeah, i like him ;) . Yeah fark it, i gave it a shot. You tell me, if i gotta wait for my ex, i questioned myself, ' How long must i wait ? '

People around me couldnt believe it that i am still hoping for my ex.

I told myself earlier, i wanted 2011 to be a better year for me. I wanted to leave our memories, our pasts as our past. I dont wanna cry for it ever again. It was hard for me. And i know a part of it was my fault too. I even tried to work things out, but you didnt want to. We're not even talkin to each other now. So i guess, ive tried my hardest. And now, i deserve to get the best, from someone else.

So, Superman is now 17.

He knows that i like him. And for all i know, he likes me just the way i do too (:

I love the way he treats me, and how he calls my name. How patient and how loving he is. He's a really nice guy.

For now, all i gotta say is, i really care for him. I really do.

Im not sure what we are now, but we're takin it reaaaaal slow ;)

Stay a lil longer xxo

Falling for you, Mr.Superman.

Never thought it would be like this. It came unexpectedly.

Its hard for me to fall for someone after i broke up with my latest ex. Which was in 2009. It has been almost 3 years. And i finally know, who am i really falling for now.

I hope this time, my feelings for you, lasts.

Praise to god he's feeling the same was as i do.

Hehe hope he likes Bieber too! :B

xx

I love...	Justin Bieber (for now)
Right now I want...	my money back !
I feel like...	eating. sleeping.
I hate it when...	my mom scolds me. Cause i love her and through her, i could ask for anything i want.
I fear...	Allah
I'm lonely without...	my hamster ):
I need...	lotssssa money & clothes
Today I...	went out with my loveees & solve my problem with Ariff <3
Tomorrow I'm...	gonna sleep the whole day. NO. Gotta study ):
I just...	want him back ?
I want to meet...	JUSTIN BIEBER NOW
I'm hungry for...	my mom's mushroom soup.
I love it when...	whenever someone makes me laugh
I'm afraid of...	future
I'm listening to...	i swear this time i mean it
I'm wearing...	my clothes ?
I wish I was in...	PARIIIIISSSS
I want to get...	under my blanket NOW
I can't...	sneeze without closing my eyes :D
I'm nervous to...	face pmr ?
My Mom thinks I'm...	cuuuuuuuteee but a trouble maker :D
My Dad thinks I'm...	super cool ;)
I'm happy when...	whenever someone cooks for me
I'm sad when...	i dont get what i want, like food. NOW.
I'm disappointed that...	i broke up with my ex in a hard way and now we're not talking.
I wish I looked like...	Emma Watson ;)

Ve met Viana Vain. :P I mean, We met Ziana Zain. Not a big deal, but the name is :P

Today, i went out with this 4 pretty girls. Syusyu, Eleena, Diyana, Erin and Me :D (Well it was supposed to be the 4 of us including me, since Jaja went for a "date" with someone *kenings* )

So yeap. We took the risk to watch Khurafat. Hihik.

Guess what ! We watched it till the end. ;) Through out all the shocking parts, screaming, and all lah, we made it through together (': .... uhh T_T

Khurafat. The story line is like, too short i guess. Its aaaaal about a guy, made a deal with demon. So thats it i guess.

After Khurafat, we wanted to go Karaoke. So like about 5 songs, then we went Arcade. Played the drums with Eleena. I must say, she's pro at it ! Met Baim and some of our school friends.

Oh gosh, im too lazy to write.

At the end of the day, Ariff came to see me. And we solved our problems. :D

Yay. I love you beshfren.

Will update you soon. Toods !

x