That day, you hugged me soo tight that you cried. I cant believe it you cried.

I long for all those hugs. I long for all those days.

Nothing seems to move or even change. Songs on the radio keeps reminding me of you.

Every single day i wake up a lil disappointed. Everynight i dream of you and hope you would come back.

Typical Fafa. You're just overreacting, Fafa. But im not. I just want to be okay. These feelings are suffering and just so pathetic.

I should be enjoying my teenage life. *Stares at Aisha with her Indian moves lagu Bole Chudiyyan*

Like mom said its not worth crying for something that you regret, and that wont come back. For one second i think thats true. The next 2 seconds, i just feel like killing my soul for making me feel this way. Fml.

Sometimes, i wish, you wont find another person who loves you like i do. Thats mean. But umph. What else can i do ? I cant help my own self. That sucks ! Knowing you couldnt help yourself get over something.

Everynight, when i go to bed, i'll always look at the ceiling, and keeps on wondering if you ever gonna come back. Why am i scared to move on ? Why ?

Im messed up. Its like one day, i'll be strongly agreeing with everyone to move on. And then the next day, i'll be lying on my bed under my blanket will be thinking about you over and over again. Tell me how do i solve that ?

I tried so desperately to let go of you. To push you out of my mind and my heart. I tried my hardest for you and for me. I succeeded but thats only for a little while.

Let me feel it with you, for one last time.

Just one last time. I'll change the whole night, just for you and me.

xx