For now, i prefer to be alone. I want to be alone just to feel peace and free.

Everytime i get messed up, example, if mom scold me or i get stressed, i would sit alone in my room, in the dark.

On the bed, with pillows all around me.

And when i open my eyes, i see nothing. Cause its dark. And im alone.

I hear nothing, and ther's no distractions at all. And that is when i can feel how peace it is to be alone in the dark without any distractions.

I've been having lots of things on my mind. I stay quiet most of the time.

Im giving a chance to my ears to hear what people say. And let my mouth stop talking for a while.

In a way, i am going through pains. But not love pains. I do not know what is it, but pain it is.

Im weird, but i dont think thats your problem.

My future husband might be unlucky, cause im just plain weird.

Heh, crap.

I am lost. And confused.

I just need time. Sigh.

xx