So, my heart was practically crushed. By words.

Time will heal me.

xx

I know i need someone to talk to.

I need the right person to talk to.

I just need the right person to hear me cry.

Goodbye is now in my dictionary.

xx

For now, i prefer to be alone. I want to be alone just to feel peace and free.

Everytime i get messed up, example, if mom scold me or i get stressed, i would sit alone in my room, in the dark.

On the bed, with pillows all around me.

And when i open my eyes, i see nothing. Cause its dark. And im alone.

I hear nothing, and ther's no distractions at all. And that is when i can feel how peace it is to be alone in the dark without any distractions.

I've been having lots of things on my mind. I stay quiet most of the time.

Im giving a chance to my ears to hear what people say. And let my mouth stop talking for a while.

In a way, i am going through pains. But not love pains. I do not know what is it, but pain it is.

Im weird, but i dont think thats your problem.

My future husband might be unlucky, cause im just plain weird.

Heh, crap.

I am lost. And confused.

I just need time. Sigh.

xx

I feel like changing my blog url.

What a beautiful day, Fafa says.

I woke up with my mom's call. She told me to get up and get dressed for tuition.

After tuition, i accompanied my Little Tough Ganas Girl (Erin) to dentist. As she needs me to pick a new colour for her bracie. So i picked turquoise. We both loved it. (:

After that we had our lunch together. And we decided to do something since we're bored.

So we decided to go One Utama for the Rock Climbing (Y)

At 2.20, she picked me up. And say, ' i booked at 2.30 '

We rushed up all the way to the 5th floor. I guess that fast walk was our 'warm up'

We immediately change and introduced ourselves to our instructor. It was a girl this time.

Heheh, i saw 2 hot instructors :P

Whaw. I must say, i did pretty good this time. Haha. Im praising myself. Perasan.

But hell, that was fun. Even though i got my finger hurt, darah :/

We had lots of fun together today. We challenged each other to pick a colour and step only on ione colour all the way up. I did it. Though i cheated once :P At least once. Unlike Erin, she cheated like .... only god knows.

After rock climbing, we decided to walk around and see what can i buy.

Erin hates it when i spend my money on clothes :P

Then we saw Tania god granted my wish. Amin.

She has grown up so much ! Prettier. Gorgeous-er.

I think thats all for today. Toods !

xx

I miss you.

I miss how i used to like you.

Lily came over just now. Wheezz.

We went to the padang, and saw Ajmal playing football (Y)

Finally, rindu dilepaskan.

I told her about whats goin on in my life. She said she feels so left out. Like she knows nothing.

So, thats the reason why she came.

I let everything out. Everything. Now she finally knows who ive been talkin about in blog.

I asked about her relationship with Daniel choo. Well, they are shoo cute.

Retarded couples :P and yet veli adorable.

Next is, Carey ! I read your blog honey. Im always there for you (:

Just call me or text. Whenever you need someone to talk to.

Later,

xx

Guys, i think i love the movie, Phantom Of the Opera.

I just watched it at school with my classmates during English period.

Whow. I loved it. But we only watched it halfway. Gonna continue watching it tomorrow.

All i can say is, The Phantom is faaarrrking hot. Hotter that Raoul ! Well, Raoul is more to Charming. But oh well, i didnt expect The Phantom to be as good looking as that ! He.is.damn.Handsome.

Cant believe im going gaga over The "ghost" now.

Shiatz. Love love love.

Another thang is, Christine Daae' . Honestly, ive never, ever, seen a beautiful girl like her.

She is just too Gorgeous ! Beyond Gorgeous.

Sparkling eyes, beautiful lips, perfect body. Gosh.

xx

I just feel like posting this.

I just want you to take me away ♥

Somewhere, where you and me, can sit down, and talk peacefully.

Without anyone else watching us.

Without any fear.

Just you and me.

You're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be.

Stay close to me, even though i know im trying to walk away.

Stay close, in case i fall back and i hope you're there for me.

xx

HAH ! I just read my sister's tumblr. Omaagah. She said something about meeeee for the veli foirst time :'D

Okay, sorry. Im just so glad (': Hahah.

Yeah Sha, i miss the girl talk between us before we go to bed too! Yeah, i used to be soo scared to sleep alone.

And i slept in your room like, forever! But its different now, you need mooore space. Yeah, college girl, as usual lah kan.

Sokay. As long as you're still in the house i wont be sad. (:

Hoo right. Im kinda worried about Ariff right now. :/

He's injured. Badly.

Buddy, take care la :/

So hi people.

I havent been posting about my bestfriends.

I want the world to know that i really really love Meyshna Nair, Lily Alyssa, Carey Khoo Pei Ern, Ku Azreen Nadja, Aiman Zal Ariff and not to forget, Tania Zainudin.

I havent seen Ariff and Tania for ages ! Im sad.

I miss them thethemuch. Ariff has a girlfriend. So, i dont wanna be too close to him like i used to cause i dont want his girlfriend to think that i like ariff or something even though i know that she doesnt care.

But whatever it is, i miss your appearance as a very very best buddy to me.

You were always there when i needed you. Even though its 4 o'clock in the morning.

I really miss how we used to be.

I hope we could meet soon, Ariff.

And you too TaniaZae !

loves

xx

August.

August. Auuuuuugust.

Hmm, i woke up early today. Just for fun.

So i took my bath, then i went to bed again. At 2.30, i went tuition with Erin. We were latee.

Hafiz picked us up. And he drove super fast cause we were late. My butt cant stay still. Cause he drove so fast.

And now, my sister iz leaving me. She's gonna go out with Qis and Shalma Aina.

And then she will be sleeping over at Qis's house :/

Im gonna be " One less lonely girl " tonight.

No one's gonna layan me.

I hope she wont read this or she'll go all Aww-ish again and again.

K, im bored.

xx

A lil confession.

Im mad. Madly in love with you.

I cant stop thinking about you. I want to. But my mind wont stop.

Because of you, i stay. Something in you is calling me for more.

I dont know whats up with me. But it has always been you.

You.

Im standing on my own, without you. or anyone else.

But i cant let my heart stay this way.

Just stay. Even though im trying to stay far away from you. Make me happy.

xx

Hello August. Goodbye July.

August, just be nice to me.

Oh, Marisa !

Here's a short post for you.

Happy Birthday sweetheart !

xx