Love.

My love for you is growing.

Im kidding.

No,

I am not.

Love me, as much as you can.

Give me butterflies.

Let me love you.

Today, school wasnt that bad.Most of the students and teachers were busy arranging/preparing stuff for tomorrow. ' Hari Koperasi ' .

Our cheersquad will be selling some stuffs.

Hope tomorrow will be a good day.

Class was quite boring without Razzan. He's like what, the most talkative dude in my class.

Cha wont have anyone to debate with anymore after this. Sad.

It has been two days without him in the class. Every morning when i step in the class, the first thing i would hear is, his voice. Daaaaamn loud. with his laughs and all. Hah.

And tomorrow, he'll be going to UK. I didnt even get to hug him for the last time.

I wont be seeing him for 9 months. Sad k !

I will be missing listening to his stupid un-logic funny stories. (':

Razzan, razzan.

he sent me a msg. and it was like ... 4 pages!

I was really touched. His words, touched my heart. Really.

Damn cool lah him.

all i can say, you've been a very very very fun and annoying friend. Well, looks like after this, i have no one to back me up on everything. Especially when arguing with Cha.

I love you, good friend.

I love my Monday because of you (;

Hi Again (:

Him : She treated me like shit :( i neeed u :(

Me : what exactly happened ?

Him : i dnt know :(

Me : Tell me

Him : i dnt know. i cant explain. i coupled dgn dia to forget u. but it seems like i cant :(

You know boy, i think i had enough with you.

You know we both can never click. Cause you're weird, and im weird.

You think for your own goods. You take things. You give up easily. You got no faith in me.

You dont understand me.

Im sorry, im just so frustrated.

:/

Hi I met Audey last Thursday. Ngehehe.

Okay, so i am currently at Liley's house.

Last night, i watched her performance in Segi College with Carey (:
Im so so so sorry to Jolene Lee Pei Wen cause i couldnt make it to her party :/ I feel so bad.

I hope you had a blast !

Oh yah, we went there around 3 something. Lily found her partner, Azri and they practiced together.

Holychuck, I never knew Lily could sing.

We went back home early cause carey gotta be home before 12. So yeah, we lepaked at Lily's house.

We we damn hyper. Ate too much sweets. Carey was the most hyper one.

Webcam with Ariff, argued with him :p . Played guitar, sing yada yada.

Then Carey had to go

Then the next morning, which is today, we had lunch together gether and went hartamas, soho kl.

So cool wey that place.

Planning to lepak there again (:

So sad, tomorrow we have school. *sigh

Whatever it is, i had good times with my friends during the hols (:

Hello, School.

Bluegh

( im the forth from left )

This used to be my addiction and it is STILL my favourite addiction.

I remember, I choose this over my own freakin boyfriend (';

I spend most of my time on this. I gain more friends.

And the most i like about Cheerleading is, it brings everyone together. (';

It could tighten up the relationships that was abandoned long time ago. Team work.

So sad, i had to stop it halfway, cuse of some reasons.

Sigh. I miss cheer so badly :/

The meaning of valuable friendship

We're all form the same Kindergarden (';

All love shows us all A True Friendship.

I hope this will remain forever and ever.

I wonder

What if someday, i stopped thinking about others ?

Cause it seems like im the one who's too concern about other's feelings.

Hayat said,

Meysh said,

Aisha said,

Carey said,

that ive been thinking about other people's feelings too much

And im always the one who'll get hurt in the end.

How sad is that ?

Ive been so patient with everything.

And now, it feels like my head has been stepped.

Fool me.

I just feel so empty.

Without my boyfriend here.

I mean, ex-boyfriend.

I guess we broke up.

yeah

i see this coming

im sorry, i cant let you hurt me till the end.

What a hot sunny day .

Right, today. HOT.

I was awaken by the sun. Always.

Today, the whole bsd, got no electricity until 5 something.

Soooo, instead of staying at home like some dead crows, mom decided to bring us all out.

And we went kl. Ronda ronda around kl.

Then we stopped in front of Parkroyal Hotel, to pay the tickets to Bandung at KLM.

Saw this dude who looks like Ali Alasri :p

hihihihi, sooo kiut

Pavillion was so packed O.O. yeah school holidays.

Pftt.

Anyway, i found something that i think this is so true.

I found it in Shaef's Profile.

" Never make somebody your everything, cause when they're gone, you've nothing "

Holymagahsexymamacitapapichuloz.

I met my girls yesterday. (Y)

Awethumb. Lily, Carey and Abigail !

My boyfriend pissed me off like whaaaaaaaaaaat tha fuck -.- He spoiled my mood.

But it gets better with my girls around me.

We lepak-ed for few hours. And you know 3 hours is sooo not enough for us girls to hang out.

So we walked to Carey's house and cam-whore like bitchas.

Pictures ? Hm, waiting for Lily to upload them all (:

so around 6 something, Lily and Abigail went back home.

Then Carey wanted me to stay longer. Carey was super freaking hyper k. Then she made me go hyper as well.

Furrnaaay. strum strum strum the guitaaaaaaar. Then we went online. Looking at the guitar chords, yada yada.

around 8 something, mom called. She wanted to have dinner together. So i just had to leave Carey.

Conclusion,

There's always sunshine after rain.

When he says

" Oldies say, the more we fight, the more we will love each other "

I feel so small when he said that. I was thinkin, over and over again about what he said.

Cause even I, myself, not sure, what am i going through. What we both are going through.

Yeah, it is really hard. But i just dont know why i feel so numb with you.

Somehow, i feel so stupid to be with a guy like you. But in a way, you really show who you are to me. A boyfriend. Yeah, how a boyfriend should care. BUT, i dont like you controlling me. I hate it.

And must i tell you every single freaking time wherever i go, and with who ?

Then if i didnt inform you about where i went, we'll fight. Yeah. That is sooooo You.

You wont even let me go out with another guy friend. GOSH O.O

I truly dont like it when you're acting as if You're already my husband, but you're Not.

I know, things between us are not stable right now. Hopefully we can fix it as fast as we can.

Cause you know i hate fighting/misunderstandings. Over and over again.

Lets pray for a better one.

Amin

I love you.

Yesterday i went to Kl. It was sooo crowded.

Yeah, i went Kl and watched The Prince of Persia.

Watched it with Aisha, Qis. At first, we were like quarreling to watch The Killers, Karate Kid or Prince of Persia.

Well, knowing Aisha, of course she'll fight for her thang. So yeah, we watched Prince of Persia.

It worth it.

So awethumb (Y)

I tell you what, The hero, Jake Gyllenhaal as Dastan, is motherchuckin hot. His body could melt you like no one else could.

Freaking awesome k.

I feel like watching it again :D

Yes, next week with my boyfriend, Lily and Erin. He's gonna hold his head, close his ears. Cause i'll be talking about the hero.

Hate me, bitch.

BoomChikaWawWaw.

OMG !

You can call me gay or whatsoever now,

but i cant deny this.

I think Im totally addicted to Justin Drew Bieber !

Guess what i know ?

His birthday is on 1st of March.

He loves wearing supras and hoodies.

and I LOVE IT.

His Mom's name is Pattie Malette and his parents are divorced.

He has 3 siblings going to be 4 including himself.

He is the eldest.

And his lil sis's name is Jazmyn Bieber

Lil brother, Jaxon Bieber

His favourite colour is Purple & Blue. He likes Purple the most.

Which is also my favourite colour :D

Selena Gomez is his Bff.

He is 16 years old.

He was born in Canada.

And he plays trumpet, piano and guitar.

SEE ?!

I told you !

I even dreamt about him twice before.

Trust me, i dont have reffering page or something.

I just read once from Tiger ( Teenage) magazine and i got it all in my mind.

I havent tell you about his personalities.

If i write it here, i know you'll die.

I love Justin Drew Bieber

Cant deny that.

Sorry boyfriend, i think i love him more :P

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABAH <3

You know you're the bestest daddy ever.

Thank you for everything.

I can never ask for another.

I love you and I care about you

I know you're still waiting for me to cover my head.

And i know thats what you really really wish for.

I will, someday.

InsyaAllah.

God Bless You Abah.

Happy birthday Big Guy !

So, yesterday i was supposed to meet up with Lileyh and Carey. But the plan was cancelled.

Erin wants me to teman her watch Shrek 3 3-D . Oh yeaaaah, so furnaaay. And that was my 2nd time watching it.

After the movie we walked around the mall, cause im looking for something to buy for my dad's birthday.

I saw Shauqi (; Loooooong timeeeeeeee never see.

Around 6 something we went back home and i stayed at Erin's hommieh.

She make me go drunk all night long k. I can barely breathe. But at least she made me happy with all those stupid silly hilarious jokes.

To let go does not mean to stop caring,

it means I can't do it for someone else.

To let go is not to cut myself off,

it's the realization I can't control another.

To let go is not to enable,

but allow learning from natural consequences.

To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means

the outcome is not in my hands.

To let go is not to try to change or blame another,

it's to make the most of myself.

To let go is not to care for,

but to care about.

To let go is not to fix,

but to be supportive.

To let go is not to judge,

but to allow another to be a human being.

To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,

but to allow others to affect their destinies.

To let go is not to be protective,

it's to permit another to face reality.

To let go is not to deny,

but to accept.

To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,

but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.

To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,

but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.

To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody,

but to try to become what I dream I can be.

To let go is not to regret the past,

but to grow and live for the future.

To let go is to fear less and love more

Remember: The time to love is short

The spaces between your fingers were created so that another's could fill them in

Yes, i am taken.

But i dont think im happy with it.

I purposely keep this away.

I didnt want anyone else to know.

I wanted to keep this away from everyone.

Its complicated, and i think we both should move on. Maybe we're not meant to be.

I wonder how can we get stuck in this. I didnt see this coming. I thought it would be fine.

But its the opposite. We're only happy at times, and fight most of the time. I really hate that. I hate it.

I dont get you sometimes. Small matters, you make it as big matters.

You only see my mistakes, my problems. But you yourself ? Fcked up. Love needs to give and take.

But it seems like ive been giving too much.I think about your feelings too much while i get hurt in the end.

How fair is that ?

You should learn how to accept your own mistakes. And you should learn how to trust yourself.

For 1 year knowing you, i prefer the old you.

What to do, people change.

And i guess the way you love me, the way you care and the way you understand me before is better than how you are now.

Maybe things doesnt come twice. Maybe our relationship is the best to keep it as friends.

I .. love ... you. But .. you give me shitz.

I think i love Red.

Permanently (;

My Nama is Khan

I finally watched this movie! All i can say is, this movie is really amazing. It shows that muslims are not terrorist.

This movie involves mostly about religions, races and love. A great great love. How true is his love towards his step son and wife. Until he was willing to go and see the president of america to tell him what his wife wants him to say and to prove that his not a terrorist.

He's sick. Asperger's Syndrome. How sad, but he survived and live happily with his life. (;

How cuteeeeeeee is that!

I dont think i would get bored watching this movie over and over again.

Im really touched. He's sooooo furnaay (';

Sad News.

Rufus. Is. Dead. This is sooooo fast. Why dyu have to go so early ):

You know i love you. Its sad seeing you under your mushroom house. I'll miss you so much Rufus.

And now, Humphrey is left alone. Poor thing. We'll get you a new housemate as fast as we can.

No, no no, dont die :/

I'll miss you. hmm.

Exam is finally over.
My last paper was Maths. Paper 2? Hm, effed up.
Byebye school, Hi hol-hol-holidaaay (;
Finally, ive been waiting too long for this holiday to come.
And finally i could rest up my packed mind.
I can at least go out with chicass and let go what i need to.
Friends will always comfy you, and will never fail to make you smile&laugh.
So im gonna enjoy every minute, everyday that i have with my friends.
Friends mean more than everything.


I gotta meet up with Tania and Dini.
Long timeeeeeeeeeeee never see. )'; Heaven knows how much i miss you pretty girls.


Lateerrr

xx

Hello Hi Sunshine. Its good to see you again darling.

You can be the peanut butter to my jelly.
You can be the butterflies i feel in my belly.
You can be the captain
and i can be your first mate.
You can be the chills that i feel on our first date.

You can be the hero
and i can be your side kick.
You can be the tear
that i cry if we ever split.
You can be the rain from the cloud when its storming.
or u can be the sun when it shines in the morning.

You can be the prince and i can be your princess.
You can be the sweet tooth i can be the dentist.
You can be the shoes and i can be the laces.
You can be the heart that i spill on the pages.

You can be the vodka and i can be the chaser.
You can be the pencil and i can be the paper.
You can be as cold as the winter weather.
but i don't care as long as were together.

Whoa, for the first time, i think Ariff is right. Haha, i guess i am THAT sengal.

I have like 13 days to ganti my puasa. So, i decided to puasa today. Since Erin has been blathering about me being soooo malas to ganti. So, without realizing, i puasa. And i stupidly didnt notice that im having my pms. -___-'

Puasa kosong. Tak sah. Haih.

Rigght, today's papers are a lil effed up. Science is haaard. And i'll be facing my enemy, Sejarah paper, tomorrow.

I am lil pissed that abah said we wont be going to Bandung this holiday. And postponed to July. He said its too pack. We have Pak Long's daughter's wedding to attend on the 18th and 19th. And then he's going to China. Work.

I think i should continue studying.

Toodles.