So just now, after school, i crashed Erin's crib to finish up all of my homeworks. Doing homeworks with friends are fun sometimes. When i arrived, her belalang was there already. Its nice talking to him. He's ridiculous like fck. But funny. Then around 3 something Akmal came. They were supposed to chow at 4. But at last, they left at 5.30.

Before they left, Iz dei shisha (whatever his name is) and Mad came.

Met so many people today. And im just so happy that Erin made me laugh my lungs out loud. I could hardly breathe k. Haha.

So sad Meysh couldnt join us :/

Im happy. You're happy. We're all happy (:

Lets hope for a better day tomorrow.

His words gives me the strength. There's something about him that makes him look different than some other people. I love you best best best friend. Thank you for being there for me alwaays.

I am incredibly awkward and negative. I get attached easily, and i hold on for too long. I don’t like opening up to people. Most 5 year old children can express their feeling better than me. I hide behind my fake smiles. I’m terrified of being hurt. I tend to act older than I am. I’m probably one of the most difficult people you will ever meet. But i can be sweet. I’m a great listener. I’ll guard your secrets with my life. I will never judge you based on your mistakes, and I’ll love you as much as i can. I can be, if you let me, one of the best things in your life

I want to feel you from the inside. I really want to.

I really miss talking to you. Those days when you call me everynight. When you text me every evening.

Gosh, please make him notice me. Say that he's secretly loving me. Tell me that he's missing me.

Im quite happy that you returned my call this evening. Your call, made my day.

I dont feel sad when you're not texting me. But i feel lonely, even tho i have friends all around me.

Dont leave me hanging like this.

Currently listening to All my lovin by the Beatles.

Yesterday was my School's Sports Day

This year's Sports Day is waaay better than last year's. Cause last year we ended up playing in the rain.

Ive got so much to say, but lets just cut it short.

I am actually in Blue House, but then, this year, i decided to change to Red House.

And i guess im no longer in Blue House.

So, i went to school early in the morning. Helped them with the face paints, ribbons, clothes, yada yada.

My mom said she wants to come and see Azri kawad since i didnt participate in anything. But then she didnt come, she forgot -.-'

Everything was gorgeous. In the end, Red House wins !

1st place, Red House

2nd place, Yellow House

3rd place, Green House

4th place, Blue House

I'll upload the picture some other time.

Toodles !

Hi

I cant stand this freaking thing

I miss you

I promised myself,

Everything will be okay in the end.

If its not okay, then its not the end.

" If something is not happening for you, it doesnt mean its never going to happen. It means, you're not ready for it "

Im just gonna wait for you to come to me. But if you're not, i'll just bear with it and go with the flow. And im not gonna cry. Im gonna stay strong.

Cause my love towards you is too much, too true. I didnt expect this for the first time. I didnt expect that i would seriously fall for you. We both were happy. We both were so close. It was almost there. Then something broke it.

Its been a while, that we didnt talk. I dont know why. But i wont bother you for the time being. You might need some space and time.

Im happy, always happy. Especially, when i think of you. Well, that was before.

But now, when i think of you, im just so scared. Should i let you go ?

Ariff, thank you so much for being there for me. Not to forget, My other bestfriends, Carey, Meysh, Erin and Lily. (:

Im always fine when you guys are around.

I'll fix this mess
And i'll make sure you'll be as happy as a child
Cause you know, i dont ever wanna see you without a smile on your face


♥

Im smiling because of them.

God, i thank you.

I dont want you to read my blog,

I feel ashamed and I feel embarrassed

Cause almost everything, is about you

I dont want you to know that i actually think about you everyday

Cause its just not the time yet, for you to know about this

I dont want you to think something else

Cause when you think of something else, You might feel weird and you'll change

I dont want that to happen

I know that anyone could read anyone's blog

but you shouldn't tell him directly

He wouldn't know about this if you didnt tell him

...

I just want things to be the same.

The way we text now, are sooo much different than before.

Now i need a time machine. A NEED.

How i wish i could turn back time.

And now, everything i say, is everything about you. I dont like this.

Where's my sayang ?

I'll never be the same, If we ever meet again <3

i still remember your love.

your sweet corny words that keeps on appearing on the screen of my cell phone.

with your sweet goodnight wishes.

and your sweet voice everynight before i close my eyes.

the way you say you miss me.

the way you make me feel so in love.

you make everything goes perfect.

everything seems to beautiful and calm.

where are you, where. are. you ?

but where are you now ?

Stay with me

Cause you make me feel alive

Cause you make me feel happy

You make me feel something new

And you're something that i look forward to, every day now.

Sejak kau muncul di dalam hidupku,

tiada lagi keresahan.

Kau yang memberi cinta,

Kau yang memberi rasa.

Kau ilhamkan bahagia hingga ku terasa indah.

tell me you love me

I enjoy watching Rugby Match

I love Rugby

I want to play Rugby

I love guys who play Rugby

But there's one think i'll never forget

My Cheerleading Team <3

I miss everything

He wore Ed Hardy T-shirt

He wore Esprit Jeans

He wore Supra Shoes Purple, Black & White in Colour

Oh boy, I love your outfit

I seriously love it

Danial Sabri

(:

Happy Birthday guys !

Carey Khoo Pei Ern

It has been quite long that we've been bestfriends.

I really love you.

You were always there for me through hard and easy.

You've been always asking me how am i and hows everything.

Keep on being yourself, cause i love you for who you are (:

Happy Birthday !

DPC maliii :D

Ayesha Halima

My childhood friend + distance cousin

We've been friends since we were 2

Im glad that we're still friends and still close as we are before.

I love you babe, take care always (:

Today, it started off badly. Not that bad, but i dont like it how it went.

Sooo, mom woke me up around 8. She's bringing me to the Malaysia's A-Level College where Kak Hana, Hamzah, Marsya and Nudin study to go oversea. In Lembah Beringin, Which is 40 minutes drive from here. By 9, Aunty Wan Hashimah came with Ayesha.

Its like an Open Day. So many Hotstufffffffssssss !

The college is okaay, and it gives me more semangat for me to study.

From now on, im gonnnnnaaaa study smart. Call me a nerd, you bastard.

Around 8, ther's a last minute plan. My sister ajak go watch Date Night with her friends. At the same time, Ameerol wanted to see me. So we went Curve. But then, the tickets habis. So i go see Ameerol. He was with his sister, Theera and Fattah Zack.

Since the tickets were sold out, We decided to go to Bangsar but the plan was cancelled and we went Hartamas Square. We shisha-ed for a while, minum minum, then chow.

My head feels so heavy now. First time I tengok Aisha high gila.

I love you Aisha

Did i tell you that i need you

every single time ?

once upon a time,

we almost be together.

Sooooo, i was quite entertained tonight. Thanks to Erin for making me create an account in Bubole.pl

My mom joined me. She was quite happy to see me laughing. So she came and sat beside me, she tried twice.

Im happy that my mom is laughing with me.

I seem to get weaker, day by day. Not because of him, or anyone else.

My back hurts often, I easily get tired, my eyes go ever more sepet-er,

im getting lazier yada yadaa.

Today, i did not go to school. Mom knocked the door few times, but i didnt open.

Usually, i would open it by the first time she knock my door.

When i opened my door, i couldnt stand still, as if im gonna fall. So i went to bed and wrapped myself under the blanket. So, my mom said, i can stay at home if i dont feel well. and I decided to rest.

Today, I woke up at 7.43 am, then i slept back until 9.30 am. Then 10.50 until 11.20 am. Next, 2. something till 4 something. After that 5 till 5.30

The efffffff man ?

Sakit.

A lil shout out to my dear friend, Shafiq Murad

Happy Birthday my dear (':

Have fun being 16 alrite. Take caaareeeeee.

i just love your smile

its just so fcking adorable

!

This song really does calms me down.

Never Be Replace by First Lady

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
The love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time

From the day I met you
I knew we'd be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you and I wanna have your kids
Thinking never compare to the feeling of your kisses

I can say I'm truly happy to this day
You make me thank God that I live my life every day
There's never been a doubt in my mind that I'd regret
Ever having you by my side.

But if the day comes that I have to let you go
I think there's something I should probably let you know,
Enjoyed everyday that I spent with you and
I won't miss you cause I'm happy that I had
You at all.

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
The love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me too
Until the end of time

There's a hole in my heart, and i wonder why.

ZzzZzzZzz

Today was a bit tiring. I had to stayback for a Kebudayaan Meeting. So then, it finished around 2 something. So, Erin wanted to stay longer to see her boyf. Sooooo, we stayed in school until 5.30 -___-'

I was supposed to go to Meysh's house for something tomorrow. But then, no transport to get there.

5.30, i went back with Erin, her mom send me home, then i had to walk to Meysh's house.

Everything went well, we had fun practicing. (';

Im still thinkin about yesterday, how peaceful was i, how much fun i had yesterday with Erin at her cousin's place, in Rawang. And plus, without any signal. No signal at all i tell you. And stayed there for like 4-6 hours without text nor call anyone. I couldnt receive any calls, or texts. Ive been told that my mom panicked the Whole day. (Hihihihihih)

Akif, the 3 year old kid, was super cute k ! He's soooo chillin. I mean, like other kids, so fcking annoying nak matiii. This one, sooo cute (';

He made my day, all of em' did (:

Adios bloggie.

Wait, i think im lame. What's going on at Speedzone ?

Fuzz invited me to go with him. But its so far away! Its at Genting. Even my sister couldnt drive that far.

So someone ? Speedzone ? What's going on ?

Hey hello,

im happy as i feel so much better than those dark days ive been through. Its not easy for me to be really okay. Cause my feelings has been up and down these days.

Im waiting for April 29th as that would sum up everything to 9 Months of me, staying single.

Ive been thru a lot. This dude, that dude. Scandals. Hah, i made it. I made it. To stay single as long as i did when i was form one, not until Nabil came and broke my record. Hahah.

Many people has been asking me. ' Faa, are you taken ? ' Dont tell me not even one dude ask you to be his ? ' 'I like you, do you think we could be together? '

same old question. There are few guys who asked me to be theirs, its just that i dont feel use to it anymore. I feel free if im single. Im just waiting for the guy ive been waiting for to come. Not everyone are the same, so yeah.

I do like many guys in this 9 Months. Major crush, Tiny crush. Semua ada.

But i think scandals are enough for me. Not couples. Its fun, and way better. No major jealousy, no fights, no this and that.

okeyss, catch you later

I now have a Formspring. I made it cause it looks fun to me. Soooo yeah, ask me what you want (:

formspring.me/fariedaabubakar

p/s : thanks to shafiq murad for helping me (:

Last Wednesday was Lily's Birthday. Sorry didnt post anything about it. My internet broke down.

So here i am to wish you, (again and again) HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY BABY

You know how much i love youz. You've been the Greatest Teddy Bear everrrrrrrr.

I love you love you love you love love you (:

Our wednesday was awwweethumbbb. Amad, Amir, Nil, Leysha, Ikhwan, Choo, Carey, Erin were thereeee.

I really love hanging out with you guys. Really. Its fun, and i feel what ive been wanting to feel. I feel better with you guys.

Sooo anyway, its been a week that i didnt update my blog, didnt online and stuffs.

Rindu facebook, Rindu blog.

Ive got alot to write. But i forgot most of em *scratches head

Ill update when i have something so say k (: