you complete me

I miss you,

come back

the sunlight

i was awaken by the sunlight that poke my eyes throuh my windows
the curtains didnt helped me today. they gave some space for the sunlight to poke my eyes
i looked to my right, i saw my table and his dead rose on the table
feels like its going to be harder to let him go
i was having such a good dream
the sunight killed the joys in my dream
i dont know what am i crapping, seriously
i want my sleep back, but i couldnt sleep anymore
beacuse im like, totally awake
im feeling happy, but 50-50
whats gonna happen today ?


what day is today ?

this is cuuteeeee (':

Aparently this is the Boyfriend of every normal girl's "dreams". :]

When you break her heart- [ the pain NEVER really goes away ]

When she misses you - [ she's hurting inside ]

When she says its over - [ she STILL want you to be hers ]

When she reposts this bulletin - [ she wants you to read it ]

When she walks away from you mad - [ Follow her]

When she stare's at your mouth - [ Kiss her ]

When she pushes you or hit's you - [ Grab her and don’t let go ]

When she start's cursing at you - [ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]

When she ignore's you - [ Give her your attention]

When she pulls away - [ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst - [ Tell her she's beautiful ]

When you see her start crying - [Just hold her and don’t say a word ]

When you see her walking - [ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]

When she's scared - [ Protect her ]

When she lay's her head on your shoulder - [ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]

When she steal's your favorite hoodie - [ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a
night]

When she tease's you - [ Tease her back and make her laugh]

When she doesn’t answer for a long time - [ reassure her that everything is okay ]

When she looks at you with doubt - [ Back yourself up with the TRUTH]

When she say's that she like's you - [ she really does more than you could understand ]

When she grab's at your hands - [ Hold her's and play with her fingers ]

When she bump's into you - [ bump into her back and make her laugh]

When she tells you a secret - [ keep it safe and untold ]

When she looks at you in your eyes - [ don’t look away until she does ]

When shes cold - [ hold her till shes warm ]

- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything

-DON'T let her have the last word

-DON'T call her hot, But Gorgeous or beautiful is soo much better

- Say you love her more than she could ever love you

- Argue that she is the best girl ever

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok don’t believe it, talk with her

- becau​se 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you

-Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid

- Give her the world

- Let her wear your clothes

- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

- Let her know she's important

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

- When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;
"Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"

you and me

.

i won't let you down
i will not give you up
gotta have some faith in the sound
it's the one good thing that i've got
i won't let you down
so please don't give me up
because i would really, really love to stick around

there’s no one that can make me laugh like you do
there’s no one that can make me cry like you do
even though it’s unlike me
i want to see you and hear you. Only you
in my interior. i want to make you live
look at me, come to me

i used to think that i was strong, until the day it all went wrong
i think i need a miracle to make it through
i pictured i could bring you back and i pictured i could turn back time
cause i can’t let go and i just can’t find my way

bestfriends

She's freaky and she knows it
She's freaky but I like it

Listen

She grabs the yellow bottle
She likes the way it hits her lips
She gets to the bottom
It sends her on a trip so right
She might be goin' home with me tonight

I love my bestfriends
How i wish they're my housemates too
So that eveytime when im bored, i'll have someone to laugh and talk with
and now i realized, friends are really important, really really important
what matters now is, i have good friends and amazing friends all around me and i should be thankful
and i thank god (':

only us <3

first of all, thanks to my friends who were there for me and made my day
they are Tania Zae, Dini, Melisa, Arissa, Mars and the boys, Azrie & Azir
24th November 09 is such an awesome day ive ever had with my girlfriends

yesterday, i woke up around 8 in the morning to dress up and get ready to go to sunway lagoon
confirmed with tania whether she's going or not, then she got her permission
and the girls went to Tania'a house
around 11 something my mom picked them all at Tania's house and BOOM
we're at Sunway Lagoon.
We bought the tickets and hellz yeahz -.- penat gila turun banyak banyak esculators
we went to change then waited for the boys to arrive at the entrance
kept our bags in the locker, teruk betul satu locker RM5 -.- and can only be opened once and tutup once. tak faham ? go la sunway lagoon
gosh, i paid RM90 for the tickets because i didnt bring my IC, and Dini had to pay RM90 too

after the boys arrived, we went to the Amusement park
which is soo awesome the Tomahawk was daaaaaaaaamnnnn fast. dah la it goes 360 degree
i rode everything, except for the Tomahawk thingi
in our rides, there's so many things happened
hhahaha, like super freaking funny, RIGHT DINI ?!
hahaha, especially when we were riding that thing that goes by the flow of the river, ahh some kind of river lahh
soooooo freaking funny until Dini sat on the stairs and laughed till she cried
hahaha (':

after havng fun with everything, we bought our food and wealso had cotton candiessssss
and that was the time when i saw TOOTTT (((((': so heaven
Dini, i still think the two guys who passed us are hot, dont care lah if they have the perut xD
ohh ohh, right after we entered Sunway Lagoon, there's a guy, immediately called us, the girls, to have few shots
gosh, our pictures are so damn pretty (': but its RM30 one piece
EFF LAAAH for ONE PIECE -___-'

we also went to othe beach, fake beach.
ahaha, we swam there for few minutes then ada lagi camera man took few pictures of us under the water
so friggin' awesome
i like that picture but semua dah broke haha

after that Dini did something pethatic but also CUTEEE
haha, i was like, Whaaat are you doing Dini?! then she was like ' Im trying to tie my hair '
haha, she tied her hair in front of her face until she couldnt even see the floor
yeah, she's cool like that, thats why she's my friend xD
so, we changed and walked to Sunway Piramid, had our drinks at Starbucks then lepak for a while, while waiting my dad to come and pick us up at the entrance
around 8 baru my dad arrived (:


Haaaah, all i wish now is, i really hope yesterday never ends heeeee ('':
yesterday also helped me to feel much more better

thanks to my beloved Mother, for sending us there <3

to satisfy my eyes

okay, imma show you some pictures of my ex boyfriend's, cousin
dayemn he's hot, hahaha
well somehow, he looks like Justin Bieber (:

He does looks like a model kan kan ?


I received a text msg from Hijaz just now,
he wants be to be at the Sd Club with his snow cap
but its a last minute thang, so i couldnt go
i wish im there (: but im so sorry, i couldnt make it
perhaps some other day ?
p/s : you owe me an ice cream dude

you wont try to save me

you just want to hurt me and leave me desperate

isnt that true honey ?

you can hurt me as much as you want now,

do it as long as you want

tear me up !

i admit, i miss everything

i admit, i didnt loved you as much as you did

but you know how much i love you now

and you're hurting me

you've ruin my happiness

you have no idea what you did

but you shouldnt treat me and talk to me that way

i think i should give up

whats the use waiting for someone who treats us bad

i will, will try to save myself

does that means i'll still wait for you ?

they'll turn out to be memories

i had fun laughing from morning till evening at school
ahaha, it was awesome
today was the last day of school for 2009
so awesome, ive been waiting for this moment
but sadly, i want to go to school again, wake up every morning again
talk to myself every morning, i want all that to keep going on over and over again
but of course when you come to one stage, you'll get bored of it, but still i am missing it
haha weird
fafa has never liked waking up in the morning, seriously

alright, so
i told you i had fun laughing from morning UNTIL evening which is until 2.30 pm
i laughed because of Safwan's stupidity & attitude
he's so blur, and loud and cute haha
he does whatever i do haha
i love stomping my legs whenever i didnt get something i want
so yeah, i told Safwan to tuck in his shirt, but he doesnt want to
i told him and tried to convince him that he looks CUTE and sooo foine
but i failed then i stomped my feet
he did the same thing with his eyes closed
sooo the very the friggin' adorable (':
he's been the clown of the day to me, thanks Safwonnn

alright, enough of that part
one thing for sure, i laughed so hard even Meyshna was laughing badly too
haha
Well, Erin controlled her laugh xD so cute

so right after school, i am supposed to meet My Tania at Mcd
but then she cant stay there until 2.30 which is sampai i habis school
then she asked me to come over to her place
i asked my mum then she said okay, she bought Mcd for my lunch then straight away send me to Tania's place yo yo.
we spend our quality time together gether like gether gether
haha
seriously, that punk is awesome man, hehehek (':
the part where i batuk so hard x)
im sorry, i didnt mean to worry you (:


alright, thats all for today folks !

overboard, too far & too much

im telling you

you've gone

overboard, & too far honey too much honey

it hurts

yeah a lot

my best friend told me that i am not suppose to have these feelings for you

because you treated me like a piece of shit

you treated me like im nobody to you

yes i know, i hurt-ed you badly ONCE

but it wasnt purposely

you've been such a lovely man to me before this incident happens

and why are you like this now ?

does this makes you feel a lot more better ?

by hurting me all the time ?

congratulations, you did hurt me, you manage to hurt me badly

happy now ?

what else ? i am being good to you, very patient towards you

and this is what i get ?

whoa, this is nice honey

i'll pray, for you and me

i'll pray that you'll be happy till the end

and i'll pray for myself, pray that i'll get over everything and i'll be as happy as a clown

you're the place my life begins, and you'll be where it ends

i told my sister, Aisha

' but i couldnt forget all those memories,what he did, what we had, its soo hard ' - fafa

' because they're memories Fa, memories are meant to be the pasts ' - Aisha

im trying my hardest,

dont help me to move on

yeah you're just a boy

but not just a boy to me

you're The Boy who made me fell deeply truly in love with you

and i swaer, i still love you

i've never felt this way towards any guy

you made me feel special every second

you can say that i moved on, but thats not true

i still need you everyday

i still hear your voice everynight before i sleep

i still have your face in my mind everyday

they never fade away

and finally yesterday, i get to hear your voice again ever since i broke up with you

we get to talk and i did expressed whatever im having in my heart

ive let them out of my chest

but it doesnt get any better

im still broken and hurt, i want you back i said

and you answered ' why now Fa ? '

i couldnt tell you why, i couldnt find the reason why

but one thing for sure, I love you Ali

i told you i would wait for you, no matter how long it takes but you said ' dont fa, move on, i know you can have better guys than me '

but why cant i have you ? i said. ' because i wanna be Ali, i wanna be free. do you like seeing me flirting with othr girls ? he answered

so are you trying to say that im too pushy ? ' No.but find other guys fa, i know you can. '

the truth is i really cant

i tried so hard to like other guys, love them

but it doesnt work

andwhen i started to cry, you asked me

' are you crying ? ' - ali

' no i am not ' - fafa

' then why are your eyes red ? ' - ali

' no they're not red ' fafa

' why is your nose wet ? ' -ali

'NO ITS NOT WET ' - fafa

' why cant you smile now ? tell me ' - ali

' because im laughing ' -fafa

' i cant hear you laughing, ' -ali

' because you're deaf ' -fafa

the way you asks me questions, made me cry

i couldnt take it without you

seriously

the conversation above is the same as this conversation, the one we had before when we are together

' are you recording ? ' -ali

' no im not ' -fafa

' then what's that sound ? ' -ali

' haha i dont know '-fafa

' then why are you smiling ? ' -ali

' no im not smiling ohmygod ' -fafa

you talk as if you could see me

you're different and thats why im in love with you

the way you cared about me, its like my dad

yesterday was the only day which i cried so hard for a guy

honestly, ive never cried this much for any other guys

ive never been this desperate for a guy

im a girl with big ego, BIG EGO

but i put my ego a side yesterday, just because of i want you back

can't you see how much i love you ?

you're tellng me that im blind that i couldnt see other guys which are way better than you

and you're blind too, for not seeing how much i love you

i know before it used to be you the one who calls me everytime, everyday

who says 'i love you' every sec

but it changed, im being the old you

and why did you changed and decided to be a worst one?

you werent like that before

and when you say ' i love you ' to me, yesterday,

i felt it so deep in my heart

and thats why i kept quiet for few seconds

i want you to know how much i love you

i love you

have my words

i swear its true

whatever it is, i think you just need sometime

i'll leave you for a moment

let you think whats right and wrong

to let you make a real decision

take care, Ben 10 <3

take my hand and hold it tight

aisha's squeaky voice woke me up this morning -__-
so we had our breakfast at Nks, and then we straight away went to SSF
gosh, no wonder my mom doesnt wanna go there anymore
haha, the furnitures are so so so so gorgeous
i couldnt drool over each and every anymore hahah

i wanna go out, but my mom needs my help to clean up the house
Aisha is busy with assignments
abah went overseas, im missing him already

tonight, perhaps im going to Desa Parkcity with Aisha & Qist

im so bored
i wanna play guitar hero again with Erin
i dnt care how suck am i at it, i still wanna play it over and over again
hahaha

ImissyouTyson

carry me home and let's start a new chapter of us

i dont care if i die,but not being with u..is truly death himself.
pls giv me more time..to be with u.
if u dont love me.
dont tell me...
i couldnt take it..lie to me.
at least let me die smiling.
thats all i want...i love u.

so, today started with me and erin went to SMK BU3

there was a carnival

the main purpose of going there is to see YUNUS, Alia & her gang

but then, when we arrived there,

Alia and her gang dah dekat ou, while Yunus pulak couldnt make it to bu3

but he's going to One Utama

sooo, with an unplanned plan, we took the cab and off to One Utama

when we arrived there, we straight away walked to the karokae rooms

so we karokae-ed with Edlyn, Nadiah, Amalyna, Jaiza, Nadia and Lisa Haniff not to forget, Erin hee

it was so fun, we sang Jai ho, Miss independent, Single Ladies

after that Erin and i decided to go somewhere else

so we went haagen daz

while we were walking, then i saw Danial Zharif, Fareez, Acip & Fikri

awh, i gave them a hug then we ( erin and i ) walked back to the karokae room

we were so hungry then we ate at Pizza Milano i had chicken lasagne'

so awesomee, it was so tasty

while we were eating, i talked to alia ameera about my ex

she was thinkng that he had changed his number

* sighs *

he's performing at ttdi, Qallif asked me am i going to a gig at ttdi ?

i was like, i wanted to, but neah thats okay

i told my mom about it, she was so-so of letting me go there

right after we lepak-ed at One Utama, Erin mom's picked us up and she brought us to Shah Alam

dayem, Aunty Lynn's house is huge and pretty and and nice

i aslo didnt missed my chance to learn play piano,

i learnt two songs paparazzi by lady gaga and love story by taylor swift

i felt so happy (':

oh and Aunty Lynn's daughter, played bella's lullaby

my godness,my heart felt so good .. ah .. so undescribeable

after spending few hours at shah alam,

i went to Erin's house and we played guitar hero

awesomeeeeeeee after guitar hero, we watched movie, ' The Big Stan'

then my mom called, she was missing me, i guess xD

cause i wasnt at home since morning

haha, went back home and had dinner at group base

so now, im home wee woo weee

istillremembermyTyson<3

are you there ?

' did i disappoint you,

or let you down?

should i be feeling guilty,

or let the judges frown.

cause i saw the end,

before we'd begun '

' it may be over,

but it wont stop there,

i am here for you,

if you'd only care'

' and as you move on,

remember me,

remember us

and all we used to be '

i cant keep this to myself any longer

and if i could, i would tell the whole world how much i love you

how much i wanted you to stay

i always wanted to know, how do you feel now

but i didnt even get the chance to talk to you

i tried everything, i've been addicted to you

i couldnt stop thinking about you

why are you doing this to me ?

why are you treating me like this ?

what did i do ?

where did i go wrong ?

Today

i went to school, to help em' with the audition

and we ended up playing/singing songs with leysha's guitar, cam whore,

its so good to sit down with my cheerleaders again

oh by the way,

i learnt how to play ' your call - secondhand serenade ' with guitar

so awesome

but i gotta improve in strumming the guitar i guess ?

so i cant wait for the next practice

cause i cant wait to sweat again (:

' and i still hold your hand in mine,

in mine when im asleep,

and i will bare my soul in time '

iloveyou

&

iloveyoutooTysonRitter

i miss your hugs

i miss your voice

i miss your touches

i miss your smell

i miss the way you stared at me with those eyes

i miss the way you carried me

i miss the way you kissed my forehead

i miss the way you held my hand

i miss the way you hugged me from the back

i miss your singings

i miss the way you scolded me

i miss the way you say ' this is my girlfriend, fafa '

i miss the times we cuddled

i miss pulling your leg's hair

i miss touching your hair

i miss talking to you on the phone till late night

i miss the way how much you cared about me

the most i miss is, YOU and the sound of your heartbeats

time flies so fast

i wanna spend my time with you

i really miss the way you act all goofy around me

you've changed for me,

and now its my time i must say

take my whole life with you

okayy okay, so yesterday at safa was okaaayyy

i was quite happy that all of the cheerleaders were there

safa has cheerleaders in it ! hahaha awesomeeeeeeee

yana, harith, lee, jeja & ali were there as well, then i saw hijaz too

i miss himm (':

i also saw aneesa, amelia, tasha, liya did i miss anyone out ?

they were with mukhlis.

so, we discussed about what to improve and stuff,

i so cant wait to practice

we will probably get a new coach, im so going to miss Mag (':

and hello new coach (:

we were like the best customers everrr

haha, we sang you belong with me by taylor swift, and stay by estrella

the whole restaurant heard us

rockstars babeyh

sooo, around 7.30 we went to he padang near safa

it was drizzling, so we went " camping " under the pondok there

mel, jowy, jojo & leysha were creating some steps. me and syusyu just sat infront of em and watch them, while lee, jeja, yana, harith & ali were doiing some stuffs at the corner

can you imagine, Jojo tried to give a " love bite " on my arm !

hahaha, she asked if i want it on my arm or neck,

i was like ' i want it on my neck but im not ready too be a vampire ! '

hahaha, so Jojo FAILED to bite my arm

and then came Lee, haha

he tried the same thing, but teckkkkkkkkkkkk, FAILED !

haha, im so the verys the strongggs xD

i was quite dissapointed that ali didnt tegur me at all,

how i wish we're good friends, i dnt want our past to stop us from being friends

i know ive done wrong, but that wasnt my intention.

people make mistakes, and so do i

and i leaarn from my mistakes

i still love you like before care about you and stuffs

but you ?

not the same anymore

sighs

soo, also not to forget,

i would like to wish my two friends ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHAZRUL ALFIE

&

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RAJA ZAKIYY

i wanted to post up their pictures but my internet is having some problems.

:D

to alfie :

you've helped me, and i thank you so much for that.

thanks for making me smile too (:

we should hangout someday

have fun on your sweet 16 xD

take careeeee ! love you

to zakiyy :

i know i just knew you for like about 4 to 6 or 5 months right ?

but whatever it is, im glad and happy to be your friend

i love reading whatever you write, i really love to ! it helps me to smile and when im sad, i'll get back to normal after reading your posts haha

hope one day you'll write a book xD

amin !

hope we can know each other more,

haha, anyway, enjoy your 18 life :D

takecare ! love you

fafalovesTysonmore xD

HEEEEE

bye !

say hooray !

say yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh ! * tyson's tune

EXAM'S OVER BABY

gosh, i told mymom i wanna go there, i wanna here and there, i wanna shop, i wanna go ice skating lots more andshe was like, ' yeaaah yeahh '

how awesome

hahaha

i am so freaking hapyy that i made Janna jealous without realizing it again !

yesterday dah buat dia jealous nak gila

HAHA, so cool, i've never made her jealous like heckkk

i won Janna, im gonna keep on bullying you more and more kay ? :p

just face it, you'll like it mwahaha

sooooo im waiting for Syusyu to pick me up to go to her mom's boutique then will straight away go al-sasasasasafa !

toodles * wink

ilovemyrockstarTyson ((':

swing swing

hey hoo (:

i am so freaking happy today cause :

first ! i woke up with Tyson's face in my mind, its so heavenn shittzz yooo

second ! i sat for KH, SV & ICT papers, easy like crappp

third ! i studied with meysh on the phone, we're such a rockstars haha

forth ! i keep on talking like Tyson, yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh

fifth ! its adree's birthday todayy (:

sixth ! i made someone jealous without realizing it, aweehsome heh heh >:D

rightttt, so ? what else should i talk about

nowdays, im not really active on myspace already, cause its getting lame i think ?

OH YAAAH, cheer is BACK BABYY !

i miss mag i miss mag i miss mag

cant wait to go for the cheer meeting this wednesday ((:

soo, the rest of what happened today, let me keep it to myself

well, i dnt write EVERYTHING in my blog -_-'

rightt, byebye lovers <3

FafaisdreamingaboutTysonday&night (':

note for Tyson hhaha ;

hey baby, come into my dreams and spend your time with me in my dreams (:

i'll make it interesting for you hahaha

love you bitch

babyy, i want AAR, i want Tyson Ritter

TYSON RITTER TYSON RITTER TYSON RITTER

i want you like so desperately

im serious

Hello Malysiaaaaaaaaaaaaah ! * Tyson's tune

Sayy yeaaaahhhh !

Sayy ooooohhhhh !

as you can see, im talking lke my sexy bitch already, i mean Tyson Ritter

haha

Yesterday was one of the bestest day of my life, i really wish that yesterday could come back (':

hellyeah there were like tons of people came !

dayemn, Tyson said we're the sexiest crowd he has ever seen

aweeeesommeee shiiiittz !

then he goes ' Maa bitchaaaaaaaaaaaaasssss '

aaah shit, why are you so hot ? why cant i have you ? haha

we arrived there around 5.40 then we lined up and BOOOOOMM !

we're in :D

i was sticking with carey all the time, we jumped together, we screamed together, we danced together, everything together haha

the crowd was so awweeehsomee

well, we actually had to stand & wait for like about 50 minutes for the AAR band to come out on stage, kesian kan ? but i guess it worth it.

Tyson and his band totally rock ! i swear to god

i was rightin the middle of the crowd, but sadly to say that im THAT short -.-

so i couldnt really see them o the stage

i had to jump and jump ahaha

mannn, i really can't stop talking about it

i wanted to go front-er but i cant hardly breathe

i was feeling dizzy with the smells, with fatty fatty dudes -.-

haiyaaa, sudah gemuk pn mau mosh kaa ?

i almost terpelanting you knooooww, the helllllll kan ?

haha, but it was so freaking fuuunnnn

hell fun

carey and i was with mel, then tiba tiba the crod bring us jauh from mel hhaha

and can you imagine, i was 2 FREAKING METRES away form the FREAKING STAGE !

ugghhh, but we couldnt tahan sgt sgt already

so the 3rd last song, we decided to leave the crowd, wastedddddddddd ):

dah la during Monalisa song he turun ! goddamnnnnnnn

aahh

i saw so many people i know there but there's no time to talk talk cause you knoow laah how was the crowd

my body was sooo wet xD

thank god i didnt wear white

haha.

and i just loooveeee my sister for jumping with me

yeah, rockstars :D

hahaha

so then we balik, lepak safa until 2 something then ciao ..

I DREAMED ABOUT TYSON LAGI TUUU

hahahahaha, so awesomeeeeeeeeee

thats all for today ((((:

FafaissodeeplyinlovewithTyson