This blog. Ive been keeping it since 2009. So many good and bad memories.
I totally forgot that this blog is still here. I mean, its dead but its still here.

All my nights are no longer the same as the nights where i used to cry myself to sleep. Where i used to think about you day and night.

Ive stopped doing that but tonight, after quite a while, i just think that we've been too far apart. We've been torn apart. & We've been escaping from seeing each other's faces again.
I thought we could just sit on the swing, while the wind blows, and we could just sit and talk again. Spending our time together just like how we used to before we got together. But the same question keep on wandering in my mind. Why cant we do all that? Why do we have to have this kind of feelings? why do we like to hurt ourselves so much?
Even at all if it still hurts you, you should know, it hurts me 10 times more after what you did, after what you said to me and how you treated me.
At least you know that i was trying to get you back. I was trying to make it up for you. But all you did was, hurt me with words. And yet, i still havent gave up.


But now, i finally understand.
Things changed a lot. and we can never to turn back the time no matter how.
Ive been through alot. And what ive been through is all about you.
And i hope you know that.
My heart was shattered into pieces. I could not stop thinking bout you for almost 3 years.
What hurts the most is, seeing you love someone else when im still hurt. The pain was real.

Days has passed.
I have finally decided to look at the bright side and try to take it slowly.
I calmed myself down by writing in a book. By stopping myself from looking at your fb page and everything that reminds me of you.
Deleted the msgs in my phone. And slowly after that, im starting to feel fine.
I stopped listening to sad/emo songs for a while. And that actually helped!

Alhamdulillah, i made it through.
You're happy now. And so am i. Even though i am still single, but i gotta admit, i gain so much things, and i am a lot more happier.
You finally found a girl who could put you first. Im glad that you finally found Her.


(:

Why do we miss a person ? Its either because we realize that we never treasured the moment when they were always there and it left us wishing we could turn back time again. OR we were too happy with them, we enjoyed every single moment, that we became so used to the idea of having them around.

I having you around. I miss talking to you.

Heeeeelllloooooooo there !

Havent been blogging for ages!

I hafta admit. I really really miss how i used to blog about my daily life.
What to do, im not always free like how i used to be.
I mean, now, i often keep things to myself. So my mind is my very own special diary, now.

How's life ?

So far, i am doing good. I am always healthy. Duhh. And always busy of course.
Life isnt always perfect but i guess mine is getting better.

Time flies so fast. Pmr is in 4 months & honestly, i dont think im ready.

I dont get it why am i so lazy. Seriously. :O

I guess thats all i hafta say. (:
Have a good readers !

xx

Now im left to forget about us.

We were so strong, but something went wrong.

And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned.

A part of me is ready to let go. Im scared that i might ended up hating you. I can see that coming.

But thats not how exactly i wanted it to be. You cant blame me on everythng, you're the reason why im facing all this.

You cant just keep on thinking im the Bad Guy. I made an effort to make things back to normal. But you, just keep on being You as always?

Well sometimes its better to leave everything hanging rather than hurting yourself trying to fix everything.

" He broke you down to the point where you didn’t think that you’d ever be happy again, unless he gave you happiness. But, remember one thing, he also gave you the strength you needed to build yourself back up. And one day, you’ll thank him for hurting you, because that helped you to get even stronger and to just let him go. "

-Tumblr

Pejam celik pejam celik, its May now.

Wowzers.

May 29th is coming soon. You have no idea how much that date mean to me.

I understand the fact that you're so hurt.

But do you really have to do this ? It wont get you anywhere.

All i want is, to have a good friendship with you again.

I learnt from our past. A relationship could spoil everythng that we have. And dont want that to ever happen again.

I just feel so empty. And that ant nice.