"I need to feel your hands all over me

I need to feel you kissing me

I need to feel you holding me

I need to feel your touch

Cause I miss your love so much

And I can't keep on living this way "

Its true that im falling down without you.

Take my heart and fill it with your love and happiness.

I yearn for you. You.

No texts, No calls, No signals from you. Where the frrucck are you ?

Im here, watiting for you like mad.

Gosh. Im madly inlove with you.

I'll take you thru the fear. I'll be there for you.

If you ever lose your way, i promise i'll be the guide for you.

To those who reads my blog, Im sorry that ive been posting a lot about my love life. Cant help it.

xx

You came into my life as a stranger. Now, you mean something to me. And i can never forget that.

I made a mistake, and i wont repeat the same. Cause when you're not around, that is when i realized how much i need you.

Memories. Memories that you left, can never be found and can never be done with anyone else.

Your annoying attitude, your manja-ness, your cuddles, your eyes, your sweet voice when you say ' I love you, dont leave me ' your touch, your warm hugs, your fingers in between mine , I miss everything.

Have i ever mention that i feel safe and right whenever im with you ?

I dont know how do i convince you that i could take care of you and love you better than before.

Cause i know its hard to trust on someone who breaks your heart, again.

I know. But you gotta trust me.

I mean it.

You were once a companion. You used to be my boyfriend & a bestfriend.

xx

Sometimes, i just dont know what else to do. How do i make you to trust me again ?

At this time, its you that ive been thinking about. It has always been you.

This time, i mean it that i would do anything to get you back in my arms. I need you to comfort me. I need you to make me smile.

I do get disgusted seeing myself so emo like this. I dont want this.

And you do know that if you're here, i wouldnt be like this.

With you, i would be smiling & dancing everyday.

Honey, please dont make me wait just because you know i will.

xx

A long long post for today

School was really really boring today. Ugh i hate it when i couldnt finish up my homeworks.

Which, i keep on forgetting to do it. And at the end of the day, i'll just cry because of too much stress.

I have foilios. I have 3 bm essays to finish for the sake of pebel marks !

I have agama notes to get done with, which i really really hate to do cause i could barely understand.

I have literature homework. Holychuck. Fml.

Anywaysss,

I was so stressed that i couldnt do my Geo & Sej folio. I just need someone to accompany me.

So i make Meysh & Erin come to Mcd and help me with the papers and what not.

Erin havent finished hers as well, so its a good thing thou.

Before i went to Mcd, Meysh called me up and said there's a surprise for me.

I was likeeeee, oookay. What would that be. I just couldnt guess who it'll be.

And when i got there, i saw a tall fair guy, with a turban on his head, with really cute face.

I screamed Meysh's name and it was her Boyf. (':

Aaaaall the way from Petaling Jaya to Bandar D'sara ?

Soooh tuuhweeeet (':

Most of my friends were there too. So since Meysh & her boyf & Erin were so busy talking, i decided to find another table for myself. So yeah, i did my work there, soon Zahir, Putra, Danial & also Shafiq came up to me.

They were telling stupid jokes i tell ya. Fooling around with names. Goodness Gracious. I just couldnt stop laughing k!

K k, i should just stop typing already. I'll post up another post later :P

xx

A very tiring day with Her

Today, Meysh and i was supposed to help teacher do something. She told us to stayback.

But then i dont know what made us feel damn lazy. Plus, teacher was thinking of doing that thingi tomorrow. So yeah. Since we both were free & HUNGRY, we decided to walk to Alsafa.

Once we reached there, we started to talk about ourselves, and our love life.

I cant stand hearing, seeing her with her boyf. They both remind me so much of him. Im really happy for them.

I must say, both of them are soo cutee.

And everytime i hear them talk, ive always wondered, when will i be as happy as them ?

And i'll keep on wondering till He comes back.

Well, today was also my First time walking form School to Alsafa, from Alsafa to Jalan Saga.

Daaamn far & tiring i tell yah. But i have my Bestie who was there for mee (:

I love you babe.

I also stayed at Meysh's crib for few hours. We were laughing about so many things! I couldnt even remember a thing.

But its really nice spending time, the whole day with chuu boo.

Thank you super much for being there for me, like always (;

I love you to lotzz <3

xx

This. Is. Harder. than i thought it would be.

I feel safer when im with you.

My mind wont stop thinking about you.

I need you here.

xx

I found this conversation of me and my bestfriend (';

TEEHEEEEEE.

Aiman Zal Ariff: if dah mmg betul?
Aiman Zal Ariff: bape lame pulak tak contact dgn i pulak kn
faire: haih, i cepat habis credit nowdays
faire: im a lil bit getting buzy day by day
faire: dont worry, i still love you that much <3
faire: always do
Aiman Zal Ariff: okey
Aiman Zal Ariff: no lar
Aiman Zal Ariff: im kinda sad you mcm hilang
Aiman Zal Ariff: if tak you ade je teman i semua
Aiman Zal Ariff: but noww nahhhh
faire: awwwh, im still here. i'll reload tomorrow, then we can text kay ?
faire: love you ((:
Aiman Zal Ariff:
Aiman Zal Ariff: love you too.

You're the bestest guy friend ever, Aiman Zal Ariff.

I swear you're the best.

xx

Today is Saturday. And now its 11.20. Which means, we're close to Sunday.

I went to school today. Never thought it'll be so fun (:

After school, mom told me to quickly bathe and get dressed up.

She's dragging me to Aunty Jas's house in Bangsar, Andalucia Pantai Hilir Park Condo.

When i heard that we're going to Aunty Jas's house, i was not that excited. I was really weak.

But i forgot that i havent seen itu dua jejaka kecil "mat salleh" for soooo long already.

I just miss them being around me, disturbing me.

They've grown so big ! Ikhwan is 12 while Irfan is 11 years old . And Ayeshah, that sweetie pie (':

Tho i just met Ayeshah a week back, i still miss her.

Ayeshah now owns 2 pure white kittens. Ive never been that friendly to cats before, but i dont know, i just love it.

How possible is it for a 7 year old girl to brighten up a 14 year old girl's day ?

Well technically, Ayeshah made my day.

But when i got home, i just feel so broken.

Scratch that.

If only i could have just one wish, I'd have you by my side.

xx

No one else but you, Ben 10

Well it's good to hear your voice

I hope your doing fine

And if you ever wonder

I'm lonely here tonight

Lost here in this moment

And time keeps slipping by

And if I could have just one wish

I'd have you by my side

Oh, oh I miss you

Oh, oh I need you

And I love you more

Than I did before

And if today I don't see your face

Nothing's changed no one can take your place

It gets harder everyday

Say you love me more

Than you did before

And I'm sorry it's this way

But I'm coming home

I'll be coming home

And if you ask me I will stay

I will stay

Well I try to live without you

The tears fall from my eyes

I'm alone and I feel empty

God I'm torn apart inside

I look up at the stars

Hoping your doing the same

Somehow I feel closer

And I can hear you say

I never wanna lose you

And if I had to I would chose you

So stay, please always stay

You're the one that I hold onto

My heart would stop without...you...

xx

Once upon a time, when i was with you.

xx

Let me fix your heart. I just need you to trust me.

xx

When i think about You too much

Do you know that ..

Nothing is ever perfect. I need to stop myself from keep on acting like this.

Yeah, im not feeling calm at all. Not at all.

Im thinking, whats gonna happen next ?

Where will you be ? What you gonna do ?

Im just too curious. I need to know what's on your mind.

I dont wanna lose you. I really dont.

I need you to be the old you.

xx

I love you, Bestie

This post is specially for my bestfriends. Especially Meyshna Nair. And the others ; Ku Azreen, Carey Khoo, Lily Alyssa also not to forget, Aiman Zal Ariff who has always been there for me. I love you guys very the banyak (;

I never thought we would be as close as we are right now.

You are like no other. You're someone that i can completely be my total self.

I can punch you, hug you, scream to you, anytime when i feel like doing it.

You can see everything that no one else could.

Whenever i fake my smiles, you'd be the one standing beside me, and ask me whats going on.

The word 'Bestfriend' is not just a normal word to me. Its something huge, and very meaningful. And you guys should know how much you guys mean to me.

When something's wrong, you guys were always there to help me fix the mess.

I hope this lasts, till the very end. (':

xx

If only i could explain these feelings.

If only i could go somewhere far away from where i am right now.

If only i could spin my world into reverse.

If only i could i could be even more stronger than i am right now.

If only i could read your mind.

If only i could stop the tears from falling down.

How i wish.

xx

I look up into the wide, dark blue sky tonight,

and wondered if you could hear me talking to you.

I dont feel calm always. Cause ive been thinking about it. Most of the time.

I know ive been posting a lot of emo posts these days.

Cant help it.

xx

Yesterday was a perfect day.
I went out with my my gangstah, Erin. And met Akmal Hakem.
Yeah, i wanted to watch Step Up. Im soo ketinggalan.
I can tell, that i smiled all the way. I just love that movie. It entertains me. A LOT.
Okay, from now on, Rick Malambri is soo my obsession. You, Rick Malambri <3

I must say, his body is the hottest, and his smile is beyond gorgeous (:
God, im just so in love. Smile, dimples, and body, i want them all. And Rick has it all !

After movie, we walked around to find some clothes. I bought a top from Cotton On.
And we didnt realize that it was already 9!
Then we went back home with my sister.


Rick Malambri, you made my day.

xx

God knows how much i miss you.

I regretted of what i did. Overall, i know you've been the worst, which also has been the best.

xx

Tyqa, you actually read my blog ? Like seriously ?

Ok, whatever. I know about the formspring, and i know everything.

Why would you be soo like .. "Im not guilty, it wasnt me" ?

I know okay. I can think. At first i believed that someone actually hacked your formspring.

But somehow, why are you so menggelabah about this ? Maybe you're not. But from what i see, you are.

Chill. I didnt take it seriously. But yes, im wondering why all of sudden that "hacker" can tiba tiba sesat at my formspring ? And how the hell can that "hacker" knows my blog ?

I dont give a damn shit too, friend (: Yeah like, who cares ?

xx

I realized, that ive been pretending.

Ive been pretending that im glad you went away. And now my heart is having a hard time dealing with my feelings for you.

You havent been talking to me for quite a while which makes me feel even more guiltier.

I just need some private time to have a real talk with you.

Dont tell me you're gonna act like this forever ? No right ?

Nobody knows it but me - Babyface/Tonyrich

xx

I blame myself for this.

Now i know how you felt. I was selfish. I didnt think of you or your feelings.

I hurt you a lot. And now i cant stop thinking about it.

I keep on thinking about it. Why only now im feeling guilty ?

I just miss talking to you. Late night phone calls. And how you make me feel so loved.

Come back.

I miss talking to you.

Hi bloggers !

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin.

I would like to take this opportunity to apologize for all my wrong doings.

Duit raya aallll the way :D

Have a great raya !

xx

Haha. Kantoi.

You're such a coward.

No other name, but the name Bitch suits you.