Hay baybay. Hay baybay.

I had an amazing day. Yeah really.

Had an outing with my sister. Well, i forced her to (:

I had tuition this morning. In ended at 11.30.

At 3, i went to Curve with ze sistah. I gotta find something for a friend of mine. So simply walk through the bazaar. Besides, i missed a restaurant called Teh Tarik. So we went there. Been a while.

I know everyone was busy about mtv. But who cares ? -.-

I dont think its gonna be fun. So i decided not to go.

Then we walked to Ikea to find some stuffs. She got her stuffs. But not me.

I am looking forward to go Ikea again. Im gonna grab lots of things next time. I just need my banker, Abah.

Akmal has been wondering. What the heck am i doing in Ikea like almost every week.

I dont know. I just love seeing those gorgeous furnitures in Ikea.

I couldnt get them all cause my taste and my mom's are not the same :/

She's more to earth-ish, greens,browns. While me, into modern, british style and stuff. I love walking in Ikea.

Love. Its .. Loveee.

It makes me feel like a grown up person. I already am. I guess.

I cant wait to have my own house. Cant wait to decorate my house with beautiful furnitures.

Faa, long way to go.

And after that, at 8.40, i went to Aaron's house for a partay.

Awesome shaittz. I met Abigaaaaail. Sadly my girls couldnt make it. Meysh has somethin going on in kl. Erin is in Terengganu. Carey ? Cant come. Liley, well, grounded.

I enjoyed the party. The foods, thumbs up. Not to forget, after eating. We decided to put some songs and we danced. (Y)

My day wasnt that bad.

You're just an ex boyfriend to me. Nothing more. And what do you want dude ?

Im sorry to say this but, i dont need you anymore.

Look what you've done to me. Recall !

How sad. You even treated my friend like fck. So obviously la there's no way for us nymore.

You dont even respect me as your girlfriend before.

Yah i know i MUST tell you wherever i go, with who, what time, where and what not right.

But sometimes you know, my mind wont work sometime, and you dont have to make it as a big deal if i forgot to tell you where i go rigghtt. Then we'll fight. for few days, then okay back again.

Bitch. Im mad.

You're like a girl who owns a penis. Yeah, sometimes you're up and sometimes you're down.

We both made an agreement that we no longer kno each other. Stupid immature barbie doll.

Bye, i hate you more.

Today is Friday.

And i didnt go to school. Yeah, because of too many free periods. I rather stay at home and sleep. Hekhekhek.

Lazy ass. I know. Cant help it.

Then, i was told that Uncle Madni and his family is coming today, from pakistan, as Nashima is getting married to their son, Altamash. I soo cant wait for the wedding.

Inai Night is on Tuesday! I cant wait to dance. Seriously, i havent been dancing in front of people for ages!

xx

Today, Miss Ong taught us. Puan Azarida is still in the hospital. So yeah, she taught us maths.

Dayem, i loike. But quite rude aay that teacher.

But i still like her for teaching us maths. Everything goes into my head just like that.

But im scared of her.

For today, my day is fine.

xx

Slightly getting better.

Okayh. I think i miss you.

I never thought trying to be away from you would be this hard.

So imma stop trying and go with the flow.

Damnnn, folios. I should really start doing it now :/

Exam's near. And i dont think im that ready. There are no more distractions. But i dont know what else i need.

Holychuck. Homeworks are killing me. Too many. I cant handle it.

I dont even have my own private time to do revision. Time flies super fast.

later,

x

Farieda loikes talking to Akmal Hakem (Y)

Time is moving damn fast now. July is ending soon. Thats super fast.

Next exam will be on August. Great.

I feel like watching Sorcerer's Apprentice, with Liloy and Carey. Then off to Rock Climbing!

Damn i miss that a lot.

Later

x

Meatballs meatballs meatballs. Ive been going out to Ikea quite often nowdays.

I should stop that.

Kaaay, so, im just gonna crap.

Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaats up ?

Im tryna make a decision right now, whether to go to Erin's house for tahlil tomorrow or Aunty Aza's house tomorrow ?

Cause if im going to Erin's house, i'll be seeing that 4 year old little fatty cute boy (': Akif

At the same time, i wanna go to Aunty Aza's house too.

Kak Nasheema is getting married soon. And they need our help to sort ze chocolates and flowers. And i might see Zamir there. Lama tak jumpa k.

So yeah.

No idea. damn.

Today, when i was in class, i suddenly thought of Daim Cake. Ikea it is.

Yuumms. I texted my mom immediately about going to TTDI and Ikea after school.

Im quite satisfied after getting 4/10 stuffs i want :D

Mom said the others, i should take abah with me and ask him whatever i want.

I told my mom about whats going on and about life, school and what not.

But not in details of course. Moms ... dangerous.

She told me that ive got a very very long way to go.

She said, if people hates you because of pasts. Let it be. And let them find out the truth. And you must prove to them that they're wrong and you've changed.

Yeah, im having this kind problem which people keep on talkin about my pasts. Shut up. Pasts. My mistakes. Fck it.

Yes, that girl back-stabbed me. Because of jealousy. How fcked up is that ?

I dont know what was she trying to do, but she's fake. She fakes everything. I could see it right through her eyes.

I dont care you wanna talk about me to others.

Just remember karma.

What goes around, comes around.

Thats alright because i love the way it hurts.

Its time for me to be a lil selfish for my own goods.

This is umhh .. a moving on post. Shadap bitch.

It might be easy in the outside, but hard in the inside. But heck, I dont care, im gonna keep on doing this.

Im gonna do it to avoid from getting hurt. I already am, hurt. Psh.

Yeah, i have his name all over my desk ! Now, that sucks. I know this sound desperate. But we had somethin going on before, so desperate is nothing.

Tomorrow, is another day, and it will be the same. Though i could still see his name in every single piece of paper that is stored under my desk, i'll teeeeraii. Try. Yeah, im always bored in class. I loike his name. Sooo, why not ?

Goodnight.

x

Yesterday i had a dinner with my family at Haliday Inn. My cousin is back form Egypt. So we brought him out for dinner.

It was a very nice dinner. They were 11 people. Cool ayy. Buffet dinner. Awesome shiatz. Yeah, i lose 500 calories the day before. Then, i gained 1kg after the dinner i guess -.- HAHA.

I couldnt stop eating till my stomach got damn full.

I went to Erin's house for lunch just now. And i had curry mee. Gain more weight. Whoa. Haha.

Sokay, Bulan Ramadhan is coming soon ! I should be losing few kgs. Ngeh.

I learned to play Mayday Parade Acoustic Punk Goes Version with piano. And it was a success. Yeah, 89%.

I was bored, so i called Ariff and played it for him. He likes it but he said i can do better.

There's a reason why i learn how to play that song.

I kept playing it over and over again. I loved it !

Then we watched Paranormal Activity. Well, that movie wasnt as scary as i thought it would be.

The way Razzan told me, as if it was dammmn scaryy. But it was not.

I still dont get the motive. Whatever.

Catch you later ! x

but

i

give

up.

its over

yeah

just in a blink of an eye

im doing this to myself

so

i wont get hurt so much

in the end

Everyone says love hurts, but that is not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes someone feel wonderful again.

im gonna miss the old us

What about this ?

I wanna watch sunset with you, under a huge tree with yellow leaves. With white and purple flowers all over the place.

With one white horse tied to a tree.

I'll wear a dress and you'll wear my favourite shirt.

Just the both of us. The both of us.

I wanna lie on your chest, and hear your heart beating. I want you to hold me tight, under the huge tree.

Whisper in my ears. Look me in the eye and make me believe that love actually exists.

Azraei complained that i never blogged about him :P

So yeah ...

Hi Azraei Azmi !

Dude i loike your curly hair (':

Girl, Stop trying so hard to get into the conversation/group/gang or whatsoever.

I know you might not like me. And yes, its clear that i dont like you too. Cause you're such a backstabber and such a big fat liar.

You're no one to me. And you can never make me feel 'ouch' .

What are you trying to do ? Trying to prove that you can fit in with everyone ?

Hell-O. Hahahahaha. You're just making a fool of yourself. So just stop, and learn how to use your time wisely.

Ive been keeping this for quite a while. Ive been watching you.

And im still gonna watch how far can you go with your lies (:

You have a really sweet face, but sad, your attitude is spoiling everything.

The truth is, you got no friend. So thats why you're trying to fit in with Everyone. True ?

Terasa enough ? Okay good. Cause i really cant tahan you nemore.

Grow Up Girl

Im not gonna hope anymore.

Im gonna stay still and keep waitin for it to come, even if it's killing my soul.

I like you so much.

Bandung was awesome.

I had fun shopping over there. Shopping heaven !

I wish Malaysia's weather was like Bandung's. Super cold.

And it gets really dark by 6 over there. Super dark.

I enjoyed my 5 days over there. And the foods are not as bad as i thought it would be.

Malaysia is really getting hotter and hotter. :/

Ive got nothing much to say.

And I Miss You (:

Okay, This is umh, gonna be an emo post.

Now, i feel terrible.

No one else could make me feel this except you. what went wrong ?

Its not like im hoping for this, badly, after you said that you wanted to get official.

I just like you by my side. I like you being there for me.

I just want you to know that i miss the old you, A lot. Yes.

The times when you give me goodnight calls&wishes and wake up calls.

What's goin on now ?

Sometimes, i just cant stand these feelings. They're haunting me. I need to tell you how i completely feel about you.

I dont wanna keep this forever.

I cant stand missing you, every single day. I cant stand waiting for your sweet corny words to come out again.

I dont want to keep all this by myself.

Ive put most of the things aside for you. Im not obsessed, its just that i want you to know that i care about you.

D

" Im not looking to fall inlove. Im not even necessarily looking for a boyfriend right now. All I really want is to find a nice, good guy I can text late at night, joke around with, and be stupid with. Someone who like the same music as me, someone I can easily talk to, someone I can be my total self around and not mind at all. A guy I can waste my Friday nights with, laugh with and have fun with. Someone who's not perfect, but understands me, you know ? " - collected form tumblr.

I see all these inside you. And thats why i want you to stay.

I dont know what's happening to me.

Im drooling over Justin Bieber. This is just plain weird.

I feel like crying k :'/

Im watching videos of Justin Bieber.

And that 3 year old girl, is just sodamnfreakingchuck lucky.

She gets to meet him once and now they're in contact. Gosh :/ Jealousy is controlling me now.

Hahh. Lame me.

Now ive opened 12 tabs for his videos. Why are you sooooo cute (':

No, i have to stop drooling over you. But i cant. I just cant. I cant.

Im gonna drool over Germany or Spain maybe <3

Toodles !

Germanyyyyyyyy scoreeeeed !

Germany is awesome haayy. They scored 3 minutes after the game started. (Y)

Do you know how happy am i ?

The match was awesome i tell ya. I was impressed. Yeah, veryy.

My sister, Naressa and Afiq, planned to go safa. Then by the time we arrived there, safa was damn full.

Yes, verrry full. The mcd pun veryyyy full.

So we went Nks. Rasta surely full lah. So Nks. No choice.

Thomas is daaaaaaamn smexxy okay :9

I gotta admit, I was kinda lifeless today. 66% Lifeless. Haha.

It took me a long time to decide whether to cut my hair or not.

Cause i just loveee my hair. And at the same time, my hair is like, spoiled. Very dryyy.

So no choice, i have to. After 1 hour and 15 minutes in the saloon, then, im done.

Erin and i planned to go One Utama for rock climbing, but then we didnt book earlier.

Then i went Nks and lepak with Erin.

Balik, online.

Online, online, online.

Over and over again.

Im that bored.

I sooo cant wait to go to Bandung.

Psh, 3 more days Fa, 3 more freaking days.

Im Farieda. And Im strong. And Im full of myself.

I believe in love, and sometimes i get addicted to it until i forgot that i might get hurt.

I believe in fairy tales, and sometimes, i feel like bringing you to my own special ForeveLand.

I believe in ghost, and sometimes i feel like turning into one so that i could peek on you and smile alone.

I believe in fairy god mothers so that one day she could grant my wishes for me.

I believe in wands so that i could fix your heart in a blink of an eye in-case i ter-break it and dont know how to make it better for you.

I believe in Love because of You.

D, its for you and always you.

So it was our Report Card day today.

I shouldnt go to school. I waisted my time there.

My results are not as good as before. Mom was quite disappointed about it :/

And screw my class teacher. Ish, fatty boom boom betul. " she talks alot in class. she was caught ponteng oso "

Wadda hell is your problem woman ?

Just because i wasnt in class doesnt mean i ponteng. And you should understand that everyone was busy with their sports day preparation kan ? Setupid. I even told the class monitor where i went.

Senang the lenang you say i ponteng to my mom ah ? Bullshit.

Hah, enough of that.

After school, i went nks to have my brunch.

I loike the weather today. It is very very very windy. It blows my hair sideways. I could feel the air through my bones. And i could walk without thinking of anything else.

And now, im thinkin of changing my blog skin.

Hope it be better.