Sooo, as you could see, ive changed my blog skin, and i added a chatbox. Chatbox? I didnt wanna add it at first. Cause i know it'll be like SOOO DEAD. But since my posts cannot leave any comment, thats why i added the chatbox.

Anyway, im like super dead right now -___-"

I went swimming with Erinportdot just now. We're like .. drunk in the pool ? Dah masuk air, pergi masuk air lagi. Lagilah masuk air kan? Laughed stupidly like goats. We talked about freaking pervert tuition teachers lah, sejarah lah, ze ex boyfriends yada yadaa. Just now was awesome. I know ive been having lots of things with Erin. Sooooo .. yeah. Its kinda better now?

And i saw Azizul Osman! We're planning to go swimming with Lily and Carey together, next time. After their exam.

Oh, talking about Lily and Carey. I gotta see them, i reallllyyyyyyy miss them like helllllllllz k. Gotta meet up with Carey, Lily and Tania! miss themmmmm <3

i dont know you, but i want you

and i see you all over me, everynight

Trust yourself. You know more than you think you do.

God, if only i know how to draw well, i would have drawn his face, with the crooked nice smile and the height of the guy that i saw in my dream, and find out if that guy ever exist. He looks nice and different than others. There's something special about him. His smile attracts me. The way he brings himself is totally different. He looks like no one i know. I still couldnt get his smile off my head. i keep thinking and thinking about it. Its sad cause ive been seeing the same sweet face for several times in my sleep. I wanna know if he does really exist?

Why is he in my sleep? He didnt say a word. really. He just smile, and walk away.

I hope to see you again.

I just realize that Adam Lambert is hot and he's gay. See?! Told ya, hot guys are always gays. How come? This is sooooo soo frustrating. Really frustrating k. Even my tuition teacher is Hot, and he pierced his ear only on his left side, which shows, or means = he's gay. Well thats what i heard.

I was wondering, why do certain people like the same gender as them? What do they get? I tried to like a girl, but haha failed. I dont hate gays/lesbians, its up to them, what they wanna do, what they like and stuffs. I was just wondering. Why?

Things arent that fine for now. I feel so lost. Friends arent that interesting to me nemore. Cause they're no where around me. But, i like the fact that a guy that i just knew for like about, a month, could make me smile. Danial Sabri.

I have tuition tomorrow, havent finished my Maths homework and Eng. Godamnit, lazy like (^*&@!@#? !

Gotta wake up at 8 and go for tuition, Perfection. Hah, never get the chance to sleep and enjoy my saturday morning. sheesshh.

Currently, liking the song ' If we ever meet again ' by Katy Perry feat Timbaland

Well, my sister told me about that song, and im starting to like that song.

It made my day. And trust me, Katy Perry looks superrr cute in the Video ((';

i really really like Katy Perry now. call me crazy, but i likeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

i really cant stand you

i tried to be good to you but

you're such a freak

forgive me if im saying this, but you're so immature

now, i have a confession

i really hate, hate, hate you now

i know we used to be to a lovely couple and whatsoever

but not anymore, and i dont appreciate it at all. ( for now )

this is what i call, HATE

hate is a strong word, i dont use it that often

and now im using it on you

so do you still think i like you ?

NO

exam's over

everything was quite easy, not pressuring at all

Lucas sits in front of me in class

and he keeps on bugging me when im sleeping

i hate that, really.

currently checking out lots and lots of blogshops.

the only way to kill the boredom.

haah, i am really missing Iqmal Hijaz.

probably on of the sweetest guy on earth =p hhaha

and next, Dini & Tania Zae & Carey!

god knows how much i miss you guys.

i miss you three so much <3

and not to forget, my ex cheermates (';

Good News

Ariff is coming back tomorrow !

* winks

its not that we dont like you

we just dont like you for being somebody else

we love you when you are yourself, i mean it

we didnt leave you, but you did

we love you, but you ?

what else do you need ?

we care about you, always

but we dont see that you appreciate our relationship that we now

i dont know what you see in us

yeah, perhaps we're not a good friend to you

we tried

very hard. its time for you to try

i love you babe

you're pissing me off, bitch

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Aiman Zal Ariff (((:

colourful

but it gives really bad effect

Okay. So the main thing i post about this picture is, well, i dont really know why.

But somehow, if those who are addicted to it perhaps could imagine how i feel now. T_T

This is a Birthday Post for my Hotstuff <3

He's like an ecstasy pill to me. Can say, he's the most addictive boy friend everrr.

He has been a good listener so far, and also a good father =p ahaha

I like the fact that we both are close and concerned about each other.

Its been 3 years and still counting. We've been thru a lot.

And i keep on loving you more and more. I like you here, around me. You make me feel save, and trust you in almost everything. You're the special one, cause you stay and showed me love.

You're like brother whenever im sick, you're like a father whenever you told me not to to this, and that

and you're different than the others.

what else can i say ?

you're my happiness. hahaaha =p

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY SAYANG ((((';

p/s : no pictures of him x)

i love you, always <3456789

" after a while, you learn that you dont need anyone,

else in order to survive.

No one else is ever going to always be there no matter,

what they say or what they promise you.

You just gotta suck it up, accept it and

keep on keeping on "

" something still exist, as long as there's someone around to remember it "

" its not that we dont care, we just dont want to give you the attention you want "

" bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have againts one another.

Forgive, as the Lord forgave you "

" there are three things should never be broken ;

Friendships, Promises & Hearts "

So the heart is said to be the strongest muscle in human body,

then, can anyone tell me why it breaks so easily ?

why do we have to keep on fighting about the same thing?

you know i dont like that.

consider other people's feeling. especially mine.

i dont want any fight between us

cause you're my only one. my only best boy friend.

you were always there

you cheered me everytime im down

and i like the fact that you actually care about me

so stay here with me

iloveyou

im dreaming of Supra !

supra supra supra

then i need money money money

$$$ * kashing kashinggg

Supra shoes are really killing my eyes k!

lawaaaarrz gilaaaa (((((''''''';

im going after guys who wears Supra shoes.

haha, and skater boys not to forget *wink

two days in a row baby.

i woke up veliii early.

i was awaken, by Syusyu.

i went breakfast with her, and straight away went swimming.

around 11 went out of the swimming pool, and then study :D

wee T_T

my mind is ... super full . O.o

i feel much better now. dot. im happy :D

rajanazrin from now on i shall be your PA

rajanazrin u have to listen to me 1st

rajanazrin: haha

fafa: PA ?

fafa: papa ?

fafa: haha

rajanazrin: if nk one guy kne tnjuk kt i dulu

fafa: HAHAHA okaaaaaaaaaaaay

rajanazrin: personal asst la

rajanazrin: haha

fafa: HAHAHAHAHA

rajanazrin: a**** ngn a*** satu kepala lah

right, personal assistant. haha

alright! i shall go to bed now.

night (:

i tell you what,

watching Valentine's Day really worth it :'D

its so freaking funny !

i had fun for today. i went out with my sister, and her friends.

adi niezam was supposed to be there, but he can't. lily? she's not free. i texted Dini if she's free, but she's not, her sister is in the hospital.

so i walked with my sister. few minutes after that, i hang out with Danial zharif.

its a lil awkward walking with your ex. but oh well, it went well.

there's nothing much i could say.

lots of love, fafa

ya know what ?

haha

its bad having an ex with the name Ali

it would be really really hard to get over it if you couldnt get over it

cause you see that name almost everywhere now

books, mamak shops

im just so shocked that my mom could bounce the basketball, ball.

so early in the morning, like about 8, mom knocked my door and tapped my legs -.-'

i sat, and went back to bed while my mom went out to buy breakfast for dad and sisters.

around 9, we went Taman Tun. i didnt breakfast -.- banyak laaaaappaaaaaaar

yeah, went there, and started to play badminton with my cousin.

after a while, we started to play basketball. but before we touch the ball, my mom took it, and bounced it all around the court haha

and so, we played. pheww super titing.

sweating like hell ! but at least, i lose few calories for today :p

good girl, fafa.

right, so i have another few days to enjoy my holiday ):

wednesday, thurdays, firday, saturday, sunday. 5 more days, shittz

tomorrow, going to ou with adi niezam kot. watching Percy Jackson ! and the Valentine movie apekebenda tah.

then after that, next tuesday, i have my exam.

bila nak study ni ?

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Logan Lerman, hold my hand and take me away

(';

i have a bestfriend

we've been good friends since we were 11

we go out together, we swim together, we shower together, crap together

tennis together, gym, squash, movie

i love her a lot. very very much,

i must say she was one of a kind

we used to be really really close

and when we turned 13, we started to become a lil not close anymore

but it was still fine, no one gets annoyed, no one talks about each other

and plus, we werent in the same class, so that could be the reason why.

but we're still quite close

and now, we're 14. FOURTEEN i repeat

i must say, things changed a lot. most of em'

we are in the same class now

but we're not sitting together, we never did actually

i dont mind with whom she's friends with, its just that i dont want her to be them

she's great being herself

and now, she thinks that talking about guys are immature

say bad words are cool

i tell you what, by stop doing all that wont make you look matured

talking about guys, are normal for teenagers

being serious is totally not fun,

say bad stuffs every single time is really rude and absolutely unattractive sayang

she changed alot god, help me to get the REAL her back

i know, you're trying to be like Ulii, but sometimes, its better when you, be yourself

Ulii is being herself, and thats her, it suits her. but not you

fuck the people who says you're immature

i love you Erin

its Electric bitch,

hahahahahahahahahahahah ('=

its my cheersquad t-shirt

i found this in Abbas's page, they actually bought our t-shirt

awesomeness hhaha

p.s

ignore the poyo dudes

haha

i just feel like having a boyfriend

a hot and amazing one

the one i could lay on to

the one who'll always be there through whatever

the one who could make me laugh as if im never gonna cry ever again

the one who really understands me

who could wait for me

watch me sleep safely

wakes me up every morning

and someone who respects myself and my family

i dont know why,

but he's on my mind

Im hungry

RAWR

:9

( i took this picture ('; memory )

for the past few days, i had fever.

and its really bad

ariff texted me, as usual, to know how am i doing

and i replied, i told him that im having fever

cough, flu, headache and sore throat

i complained, saying that i have no mood at all,

feeling so super sick

and he replied

' Haih. You need more rest dear.

Beli 100 plus. Minum tau. Dengar cakap i. I selalu minum bila i demam.

Go buy and drink. Minum banyak tau '

(';

i really love you Ariff, you're my bestfriend and forever will be.

you're always there for me

and i feel loved around you

probably because we're not the same sex

whatever it is, i totally care about you ((';

at first, i thought you were that type who come and go

but you're not

you stay, and make my day

you're my only guy friend who stays, and thats why i love you the most

today is such a good good day (;

1) it was my First day in Perfection.

The class was oo-kayh

Teachers ? Foine. but my maths teacher is like .. WOOOH !

he's too soft

2) i tried not to miss Him that much, and it worked A LIL

3) went shopping with Aisha and saw Carey and Lili.

4) went to Aunty Nafisah's house in TTDI Hills

5) im happy (;

supposedly meet up with Ariff in One Utama.

but he went Curve, so tak jadi.

a lil upset about that

toodles ! (:

arifffffffffffffff (;

your birthday is coming up

what chu wannttt ?

:D

i love you Aiman Zal Ariff

always & forever

Ain, im here with good intentions,

first of all, what did i do to you until you're so mad ?

i mean,

i've NEVER talked about you before, even about your friends

i smiled to you, talked to you nicely and stuffs

i only bad mouthed about Hidayah Sofiah, and that was all before.

and we stopped.

ive stopped talking about her.

thats the end

end of my 2009

hoping 2010 would be a better one

but then this thing popped out

i know that you all are defending your own friend

and jaja's doing the same thing

she heard that one of you bad mouthed about Alya and Me

but do we have to solve it this way ?

fight wont solve anything

we're teenagers, ada brain

we should solve it in a matured way

wait, i think i have appendix

ha-ha NOT

well i feel like it

this happens to me quite often

it hurts alot, it takes time to go

sometimes i feel like killing my left side of stomach

I met my cousin yesterday weeeee. i had fun (';

next plan :

- basketball together

- ice skating together with my mom and your mom

- tennis with our moms

(:

okay, so today is Monday. Right, Monday.

Today is such a good day, not much homeworks, laughed so hard, saw Ayie at the toilet.

not much, but still, i love today <3

oh, im missing my mann