science paper 2 was so tough
im feeling much more better than yesterday
yesterday, i was so moody all of sudden

im in aisha's room, studying maths while listening to Robbert Pattinson's songs
his voice calms my head even tho i couldnt barely catch what's he's saying
its raining, heavily.
i just feel like dancing in the rain at the back of my house, alone. while bella's lullaby song is on
but im coughing and im sitting for exam
exam is kind of fun when i really think that way, its just that i hate revising

i wanna score for my finals so i could have a DSLR and go wherever i want
i wanna find peace

so, lastnight, the pasts came after me,
i was remembering everything that i did with him
i spend my time listening to his voice that i recorded
and tears fell down on my cheeks
if only i could erase the pasts which are hurting me badly, i would


so, im waiting for SATURDAY,
AAR Concert baby (:
i just cant wait, who else are going ?
see you guys there (:

congrats Zakiy :D

haha, this is a very very random post rightt ?

yes, i know -_-'

But whatever it is, Zakiy has a Braceface already :D

wondering how's the pain * ouch

rawrr! i know how much it hurts even tho i havent use braces before :S

i hope its not that painful yeah Zakiy ?

good luck anyway (:

sooo when's my turn Abah ?

haha, i guess i'll just wait

he said wait until its my turn cause Aisha has to wear first

grr

Sooo, i am currently sitting for my Final Exam,

i should study, should not use the computer, bagus kan ? -_-'

tomorrow i have Eng paper 1 & 2

aweesooomee, i so cant wait

by the way, (:

do wait for my another post about my Two Closest schoolmates in my school :D

toodles !

love you

look at this

i miss my blog (':

okaaay, soooo

guess what !?!

i've cut my hair and im loving it baybay

hahaha so kecoh like that ritee ?
so ? who cares ? * raise my hands up

as you can see, my fringe is shorter compared to my old hair, and its a lil shorter.
not much difference actually.

sooo, yesterday my mom went to Tesco to buy some groceries
daaayyyem, i cant follow her cause i gotta study for my final exam which is TOMORROW
holy crap right ? ugh
so she brought my sister, Aisha only AND ALI.

and this morning, when i stepped into the kitchen,
macam Food factory :o
banyak sangat foods :D mwahaha
you know Fafa loves FOOD rigghhtt ? :p

and today -.-' ,
i had to jaga my younger sister and brother at home.
while my mom went out for a facial treatment
not fair * sniffs
someone, teman me study ? )':
my dad's not home, he went somewhere which i do not know where

by the way,



i received a surat amaran pertama from school -.-
the hellllll, gila kan ?
saying i often ponteng, dah 22 days
i remembered, i only tak datang school dulu, before Cheer 09
and i do not poteng, i just didnt come
damn it, haha

alright, thats all for today ((:

he's back to normal

Finally (:
my cheeseball is back to normal

I love you Aiman Zal Ariff



haha sorry for this really really short post,
but im still posting it because today, a day which i'll remember forever

tania's open house was sooo fun

okay, so how do i start ?

ahaha, alright. Melisa, Dini, Myra, Tasha, Talya, Farah, Aina, Arissa, Ammar Harith were there :D

the first thing we do is, EAT haha, definitely !

the ice kacang tastes like TOFFEE haha

after that we all mengusik tania :p

thats okay tania, we love youu heh heh >:D

so after that, we went into a room and camwhore, talk craps, AND prank call people

haha, i guess Arissa's the bestest prank caller everrr

she made us laugh like heck, Harith pun gelak teruk teruk kan ?

' hallow, im Natasha from Britain ' ahhaha

Harith was involved in the prank call too ! haha

righhtt, so after that, Harith had to go homee, but he couldnt find his slippers !

haha :p tengok tengok Tijan piggy backed him to the car, awww its so sweet you know :D

gosh, i just dnt know what else to say, there's alot more to story, but i dnt know how to tell it

its amazing having friends like them you knooww,

Tania, your friends are aweesomee, hahaha

i learnt a word, ' fei-ji ' haha Fat chicken aite ?

i really had fun (:

oh i saw Azraei >:) haha, and " aaron johnson's clone " too.

and now, i am already missing all of them. Especially Tania ! ((:

hey babe, i love you kay. always & forever.

Happy Diwali

Well, Yesterday i went to Vee's open house.
Maaann, it was so fun !
i went there with my sister and i didnt even eat at Vee's house.
haha, its bcause im SO FULL.
get it ? SO FULL
then jowynna asked me to come upstairs, cause everyone are upstairs.
so i went up, i saw pei wen, leysha, yana, lee, yeah, everyone.
haha.
Then suddenly Leysha asked us to go in Vee's room i guess ?
cause its a little bit more colder inside there
since everyone's in, Yana and Pei Wen decided to play a game, its a ' I have never ... ' game
its was fun haha
well, we get to know what other people did. but i guess the ones who knows about what that person did, should keep it to themselves
cause some of it will be quite private yeah ?
haha, so i hung at Vee's house until 11.30 pm

and yeah, today, i have Tania's open house ! weeeeeeeeee, cant wait to see my darlings especially Tania (':


OHH OHH ! My dearest " godfather " also known as Darren has removed his old hair tuu :D
heh heh heh

help me kill the boredom

well, i guess the tittle says it all ?
i am freaking bored

so, this morning, around 9.40, my love called me, i mean Meysh.
she sounds so sad, she texted me, and missed call me for few times
im sorry that i didnt picked up your calls, i was sleeping
yeah, i slept at 2.40 -.-
BLAME THE BOREDOM !
at last i picked up your phone call, i was so shock to hear your voice in such a very very sad tune.
so i took my house phone, called you and calmed you down
i really understand what you're going through, but thats life babe
no challenges, no troubles, no life ya know ?
so, im glad that few minutes ago, when i called your voice was so much more better (:
have fun in PD babe.


alright, i was in my mom's room.
and i hear voices, well sounds like my friends
i checked from my mom's window, and i saw azriel, with another two dudes
i wasnt so sure who were they
then azriel called me, asking me whether im busy or not
i said, no, why ? azriel wanted to raya haha
but my house was like freaking out of FOOD !
im so sorryyy
i promise i'll invite you guys come for my open house nanti (:

so i went out, they were sitting at the jogging track,
i went to them and say hi and all (:
ohh, the othe two dudes are Putera & Aiem !
haha, you all look so gooooooood :D

soo yeah, nothing much happened so far for today,
and yeah, my cousins are here !
Wowon and abang kamarul !
so exicted, well hope my day wont be THAT boring since my cousins are here and im going to Elynn's and Vee's open house :D

cant wait to spend my night at Elynn's and Vee's house !

stupid printer

curse you bloody cute printer >:(
i have to submit the freaking folioo tomorrow, hang tauu tak ?
cause of you i dnt eat, ahahaha, gila emotional kan ?
i really dnt now what to post about, i just wanna keep updating my blog.

ohh yeeaaaah, yesterday, i wanted to check Zaki's blog, and he set it private
i wonder why ?
i love reading his blog, his english is soo awesomeeeeee
unlike mine, ber rojak rojak ha, see, dah cakap dah. haha

im likee dugiugsaiwagikanbjzkjzbck boooooreeed
nasib baik Fareez ada too text with
(:


thats all for tonight baby, goodnight !
<3

laughter & smiles

i had fun to the max yesterday
so, yesterday morning, i went swimming with Syusyu (:
around 12.30 my mom called, asking whether i wanna follow her to ikea
i said yeah, my sister came and picked me up with Syusyu
i invited Syusyu to come with me, she can
but then tak jadi -.-

SOOOOOOOOOOO,
I went ikea :D
like oh my gawd, i bought ever single thing that i've been wanting for my room
i bought a new table, a new carpet, a new bedsheet, ( lazy to list more )
i was freaging happy like.. heck
hooooomygoosssshh
my room has changed a lot
cant wait to show it to Meysh, Syusyu & Erin
i just love yesterday (';

So today, wasnt really a good day -.-
i went to Danish's house for his sister's daughter, punya Kenduri Akikah ?
something like that lah
i've been missing Danish, and finally i met him (:
Aunty Aza came, like duh, i'll be always looking forward to see them, ESPECIALLY,
Zamir :D
goddamn, he's so hot, his hair changed to a hotter one
* drools
hahahaha, your older brother, DAYEEM, he looks so hot
i wonder how does girls at parties can tahan looking at him
* does the slurrpp

shit, im not drooling over anyone ookaay
i'll only drool over Zamir every single time we meet
haha, weird aite ?
but trust me, he's so hot <3

so, when's the next time we'll meet ey ?
Curve jom ?
haha (':

i dnt know what to post about,
so Zamir is the highlight xD
haha

im tired

Msn

Farieda : my msn cacat

Meyshna : cam you! haha, so yeah. whats wrong?

Farieda : nothings wrong, i think im just tired

Meyshna : of? me? :(

Farieda : taak! tahla, im hungry, im tired
i should tidur kan ?

Meyshna : Shathafackup and tell me :P

Farieda
noo! i dnt now whats wrong lah gilo. i penat kot

Meyshna
larh weyh :P *my style kay*

Farieda
haha,

At Facebook

: i'll be okay dnt worry, i think im just so tired.

: kepala hotak i! :(

: chill, im okay

: :'(

: nak i makan crayon ? hha, chill, im okay

: Hahaha, goo! that'll make ME happy (:
: shut up -.- i dnt wanna die early you piglet

SO, that's the convo between me and the piglet,
babe, im okay alright ?
thanks for caring <3>

Here's the talk :

Darren : facebooking and msn-ing. u?

Fafa : myspacing, blogging, facebooking, ebuddying

Darren : lol

in yr blog

the last part

write my name :P

Fafa : ;)

haha, will do

Darren : simply for fun:)

for yr information its

Darren Ashwin De Silva

hahahahah

:P

Fafa : or godfather :D

Darren : a.k.a the godfather:P

Fafa : hahahaha

how cute

Darren : haha

dont forget taw!:P

kalau nak gambar

facebook ade

i can prepare for u

Fafa : hahah

Darren : muahahahha:P

Fafa : ye cikkkk

Darren : yay!

the title will be the godfather

the sub-title will be

OMG! I LOVE HIS HAIR!

hahahahha :P

Fafa : HAHAHAHAHA, wth apeelah you !

Thanks fr making me feel better Darren (':

lay back fafa

i am so stressed out with my blog >:(
ugh, the colour ! its too bright isnt it ? ):
i am freaking tired to look for more, and i do not know other websites )):

im feeling so lonely
my phone ran out of credit, gahh
my eyes are getting smaller, i guess * OMG
why am i not drooling over guys anymore ?
my finger hurts
my mind is feeling so messy
im craving for sushi and coke
im acting like some gay -.-'
missing Ariff like so badly
i need tania's & dini's jokes
i need pei's hugs
i wanna hear meyshna's pathetic but cute laugh * ew :p
I wanna carry vee again
im so tired

what the hell man ?
im not feeling calm at all
i dont feel good at all
what's happening ?

thanks honey

Hi, this is ma niggah :D
Babee, thanks for being there for me last night
Thanks for calming me down
and thanks for answering my call

we been sticking together like a glue&paper for years already
im sorry i havent been acting so well this year
yeah, banyak buat you marah :p
still, it was all for you, i didnt want you to change to another
you've been such a good good bestfren
you shared with me whatever you have, and i do too
You helped me alot, in studies, in relationships, in problems
i dont know how would i thank you
im so proud to have a girlfriend like you

I love you Meyshna Nair Ravindran <3
* our love's the perfect crime

to my other bestfriends,
i love you guys too <3

i'll change and i'll come back

went to safa just now, with Aisha & Qist
my heart was beating fast when i was in the car
I saw Lee, Leysha & Vee, I miss them so much
i gave them a hug, then i walked to the next table, where i am sitting and it was opposite Vee's table

Few minutes after, I saw Yana and Harith. Then i saw you
I knew it, i would see you there, haha, my thoughts were true.
Then i saw you, you were walking so fast until it reminded me how fast your heart beats on that night

few minutes passed, its time to go back home
my sister hugged everyone there
i was thinking whether i should go there or not,
so i just walked there hugged vee, leysha
and i only waved to Lee, cause you were right beside him
i dont know why i cant look at you

shut up, haha im not an emo girl, im just being emo for a lil while (:

everything feels good

I woke up with a big smile on my face cause, the first thing that came in my mind was you

and when i think of you, the world is mine
and when i look at your pictures, my mind goes on a trip

i decided to call you on my blog by the name, ' Zatch ' ?
or ' Zuzu ' ?
okay, maybe Zatch (:

So, i think i am getting better as in, i dont cry anymore
Im forgetting every single thing of what i had in the past relationships
and it all went well so far

The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was
aint it true ?

i took a quiz in facebook a ' what kind of guy do you belong with '
and here's the answer

You like how he always looks thoughful. You want to get that kinda guy to open up to and bring out a side of him no one has seen before. He'll move slowly and might need a little push. He will enjoy havng you around. Guy's shyness is cute. But it could end a little badly.

ALRIGHT, enough of that part (:
yesterday was also a good night,
I didnt know who to call, i would always call Ariff when im bored
but since he has paper today (pmr) , then i do not wanted to disturb him
so i called my ex boyfriend (:
your voice sounds so weak at first, you're always sick these days, huh ?
i miss having an annoying conversation with you haha
im glad that i made you laugh and made your voice change to a much more energetic one !
hahaha, you were laughing at your own jokes and i was laughing at your laugh,
its just soo adorable :p
i am so sorry that i didnt call you for months
i miss you Muntazar (':

* Sorry for being TOO colourful. Wish you did get sore eye ! :D

loving you is cherry pie

damn it
im loving you more & more
my heart is starting to hook on yours
i'll say, sh*t
im falling for you, im in love again
' im in love again ' same old common word but, i barely use it
and i mean it
im in love again ? haha

promise i'll be kind but I won't stop until that boy is mine baby, you'll be famous, chase you down until you love me. i'll be your girl backstage at your show velvet ropes and guitars yeah, cause you're my rock star in between the sets

yes, i want you to know that i like you (:

my heart feels so calm hearing lady gaga's song ' eh eh & paparazzi '
i dont know why
Will you act different once you knew that i like you ?
cause if you will, i wont let you know
just to save our relationship remain as friends

i do not want to lose you
i wanna keep on loving you

oiih, im not being ' jiwang ' here
=p

so long

its been like, a week i didnt update my blog,
a week didnt online myspace,
a week didnt online facebook
because of my freaking internet broke down
neah, who cares
im surviving without internet
hahaa

so, i think my life has been so great without a cyber/internet life
i mean, i've been doing so great
i didnt drool over anyone at all
haha
except for EHEM
i thought of liking him secretly, yes i am
it has been 7/8 months already i guess ?

i keep things alot to myself now days
Well, Aisha is so busy with college and her friends
i am learning to keep things to myself

Crying over you doesnt worth it
you just love making me cry dont you ?
haha, thanks, but stop making me cry man
yeah, i know. its like a victory to you when you hear me cry aite ?
i know you've got a new girlfriend and you both coupled RIGHT ON THE SAME DATE AS WE COUPLED. what the hell are you trying to prove ?
i promise, i'll get over it, and never ever look back, ever
even those little memories we had, i promise, i wont think about it anymore
by the way, you may keep telling people that i dumped you
even tho i didnt, well, i didnt exactly dumped you, but i just wanted to end our relationship right ?
neahh, NOW i dnt think i mind you're telling people i dumped you

im getting closer with SyuSyu day by day
been spending my days with her
we cant stop talking about cheerleading man,
swear to god
we really cant wait for, after pmr
CHEER AGAIN !
* smilingggggg *

my muscles are down,
been a while didnt work out,
rindunya
i cant do any splits anymore, but still can do side split
i wanna see Mag
i wanna see my beloved cheermates !
i so cant wait after pmr

I just love what am i feeling right now (':
and its just like how i wanted it to be

thanks to my mom's words
she just reminded me, ' its not worth at all to cry over a guy, you've got long way to go '

2ND OF OCTOBER 2009 hahha

2ND OCTOBER 2009/ FRIDAY/ 5.28 P.M

MUAHAHAHA

-.-
okay so, that date, up there
would be the FUNNIEST & SCARIEST ever in my whole life
* you'll know why i scream if i see dogs

it was Syusyu's open house.
she invited me, and so i went there help her to prepare stuff and blabla
Syia, Ain, Marliana, Faizatul were there
COOL, semua pakai baju sekolah and i am the only one pakai baju kurung red colour
odd enough huh -.-
Meysh is invited to, i was supposed to pick her up, but she said her tuition teacher is at home
i pergi dulu rumah Syusyu.
Then Meysh texted me, saying she's walking. I walked to her house and picked her up,
omgg BAIKKKNYA II ((":
hahahahahahahahoohoo, perasann
but memang baik pun :p
quite ramai lah orang dtg, er not so, but ramai, entahlah
I seriously didnt expect Fikri would be there too. SHESSHHHH,
sakit mataa tengok >.<

So, around 5 something, Syusyu wanted to go to taman kenanga the place where i last met Ali and Farhan there.
Syia, Ain, Marliana, Faizatul, Fikri, Meysh, Putra & ME walked to the taman.
at first it was hell lots of fun talking about this and that haha
oh yaah, i also saw Edlyn, Alia Ameera, Nadia Dali, Amalyna, Zarith & Jaiza.
Ya allah, semua laaaawaaaaaaaaaaa sangat ((':
i miss you guys btw.

after 15 minutes walking, we saw a very cute, BLACK SMALL TINY LIL PUPPY on the road
the puppy's owner didnt actually hold the dog tightly
Putra & Fikri was like, eh there's a dog, lari lariii
i raised up my voice, and said janganlah lari. gila ! it'll come and bark nanti !
guess what! that CUTE BLACK SMALL TINY LIL PUPPY changed into an UGLY NOISY DEVIL LIL PUPPY and it CHASED US !
whaaaatheehellll !
jauuuhh gila we lari
eeeeeeeeeeerrkkkk, sumpah takut gilaa
the puppy was like, superrrr fast
godd, it was right at the back of ME & SYUSYU
:'O
hahahaha teruk betul
The owner bukan nak tangkap anjing dia, tsk tsk

when the owner catched the CRAZY PUPPY, baru semua gelak gelak sampai terduduk.
hahaha


* now you should keep in mind that DO NOT let me see a dog, or i'll scream haha

what a " good " experience.