words

' i fought drugs.
im alive.
but overall
ur the worst,
most addictive,
drug i ever had '


' i will change for you.
just dont leave me '

you're so good in words, and that made me harder to forget you
im sorry that u had to leave you, i never meant to
i read your blog,
its been a while since you last updated it
update lah your blog (:




SOOOOOO, move on to the next topic :D
haha,
i currently having a crush on this dudeeee
he's cuteeee, and i like him
hahahehehehoho
i go gaga over him everytime i see his pictures
i see he's no like other
he's very matured, i just .. dont know how to describe him

well, actually i've been talking about him since few months ago, maybe ?
haha, yeah. I found him on myspace.
before i added him, i think twice, NOT TWICE, i guess more than twice.
hahahaha
and so, he was friendly to me, i never thought it was that easy for the beginning (:
i didnt realize that i like him, until now
i love reading his blog, the way he writes, its just so perfect ?
and this time, im sure that he's not like others.
i dont say i want to be with him, its just that, having his words, are just so great.
The feeling is odd you know, (:
its been a while i havent go hru this kind of feeling and finally i am
i am glad that i found you boy.

i like you, hehe

am i falling down without you ?

okay okay, the topic is quite emo riteeeeee ?
i dont really like being emo
but sometimes, i lovee being emotional, hahahahaha,
actually ive got nothing to do, i am supposed to be at school, hehehehe

look at these,













TSK TSK TSK, apaala Farieda haha

oh yeah, i am missing Ariff like so badly
why him ah ?
haha ^.^
duh, he's mine, Kidding =p
told you before, he's my best friend <3>

MY cheese ball <3

MY hero :p

i love you sweetheart

without any regrets

There is always sunshine after the rain
At least thats what I hear.
But now I can believe it;
I know its true
Because now you are here
And I found you.

Dont need to look no further I know
Youre the one for me and it shows
I found you
I found you
You know how to sweep me off my feet
No ones done so much for me
I found you
I found you

I cant imagine not being around you
You know every move I make
Youre so amazing baby,
Youre my dream come true.
Because I finally found you..
Yeeaaahhh

Dont need to look no further I know
Youre the one for me and it shows
I found you
I found you
You know how to sweep me off my feet
No ones done so much for me
I found you
I found you

I cant believe youre mine.
How can everything be so right?
I cant believe youre mine.
How can you be so so so right?

Dont need to look no further I know
Youre the one for me and it shows
I found you
I found you
You know how to sweep me off my feet
No ones done so much for me
I found you
I found you

baby, i've destroyed our bridge that we build together
i've burned your sweet faces that always show up in my mind
and your cheesy words and your voice singing love songs to me every night & everytime we meet
but i havent cleared up those memories we had together
you're not coming back into my arms
so i shall let you go without any regrets

Fafa wants to be happy (';

shawl ?

so i actually just came back from One Utama, Ikano & Ikea
before that, my Mr. Iqmal Hijaz came to my house to get my sister's twilight CD
he was bored and he decided to take me to his home and watch twilight together,
but sadly, i cant, i had to go out kaaaan,
so around 2 something he came with his Kelisa, and he wore ..
MY FAVOURITE OUTFIT ! hahahahahahaha, comeeeeeeeelnyaaaaa youuu ((':
okaaay, he wore a sleeveless with a hoodie, paired with a pair of shorts, and a snow cap ! :D
i took away his snow cap, and i think i fell in love with his gap snow cap <3
muahahaha

oh yah, back to the topic,
as i said before,
perhaps im wearing shawl just like my sister after Cheer 09 kan ?
haha, sampaai now tak pakai pakai lagii, errrk
so, just now, i wore a forever 21 top, with a pair of jeans, and Hijaz's snow cap.
bila turun bawah, my mom was like, ehhh, mana selendang ?
i make my " noh-way " face.
and yes, i pakai selendang :D
it was okaaaay laa, but i hate the fact that bila pakai tudung, SEEKOR laki pun tak pandang !
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH
-_________________-
ish, teruk betul. hahaha
so yeah, shopped as usual, i bought a sleeveless, ONLY that :o
Ali bought so many baju ! not fair )):

but at least i dapat makan two packs of TAKO TAO ! :D
wheeeeeeee
heheheheohohohohoh


* sorry for being a lil too exicted :b

finally (:

went shopping with Mother, and Sister just now and Erin too ! ((:
aaaah, im so satisfied, not really, but yes, but no ? i think yes. NO, wait i think i dont know ?
well, i found my baju kurung to Wowon's wedding this Friday. Very simple but costs 100 ++ ? Thanks motherrrr <3
probably im going to Kedah this Thursday night :D
wwweeeeeee, Wowon's finally getting married !
okaaay, then i bought a flip flop, looks like crocs, but its NOT ! hahaha, didnt have time to go to crocs. perhaps im buying the original crocs after raya.
and theeeeennnn, i took a gladiator :DD
mother agrees to pay for it. oh my gosh, i love you Mother.
bought a pair of jeans, and i didnt have time to find for some tops.
its hard to find nice & reasonable tops.
well, i dnt really care about price, but abah does, so mother HAVE to care about the price too.
):

Erin ! hehehehehehehhee, i know you love me
thanks for buying those two tees that i choose for you !
haha, i love you babyy,
thanks for acompanying me anyways

and oh, went home, berbuka as usual,
before berbuka, which is, EXACTLY when we arrived home,
abah was on the phone, and he's whispering, he's not talking as usual.
i knew it, knew that Achik passed away, cause a day ago, he was at my house, and he is sooo sick ):

abah sat at the table, buka puasa, and he told us that achik passed away
i heard Cik Man, which is Achik's favourite & beloved younger brother cried on the phone
he was updating whatever happened to Achik, he didnt know what to do, cause he was so panic
we all packed our clothes to go Kelantan,
I saw Cik Man's eyes are red ):
i cant imagine losing a brother, ecpecially when you and him are like best friends
Achik's children, Marsh and Ryan Iskandar are still small, what do they know about death ?
two kids age 5 and 3, i cant imagine, how sad is the mother, well, they are divorced but still keeping in touch, friends like normal

so we spent our first and second raya at Kelantan, but supposely kita raya at KL.

al fatihah to Zulqarnain ( achik )

i am so touched, i love Electric !

I miss my Cheerleaders, a lot (':
they will always make me smile & laugh whenever im down
i miss Vee's hug when i was upset about Meysh's and mine friendship
i miss Pei Wen saying ' fafa, fafa do your split, do your split
i miss Mag torturing us with love (':
and i also miss everyone's smiles, jokes & laughs

we'll be doing another audition after Pmr and also will be starting practices after that,
and i so cant wait for that !
being busy all the time, again :D
aaaahh, lepak-ing with them, spend time with them, spend money at safa (':
hahaha


OH YAH !
PEI WEN, OUR CAPTAIN MADE A VIDEO OF ELECTRIC
ITS SO AWESOMEEEEE
AND I AM SO TOUCHED (':
I LOVE YOU SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SOOO MUCH PEI WEN !
YOU MEAN A LOT TO US, YOU'VE BEEN SO GOOD AND HAVE TOUGHT US WITH A LOT OF PATIENT.
BECAUSE OF YOU, ELECTRIC HAVE EXISTS
WE'LL TRY OUR BEST FOR NEXT YEAR (';

HERE'S THE VIDEO'S LINK

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yFeqxxDGGTM

haha, sorry !

right, sorry for posting alot of posts for today ((';
i just feel like posting a lot cause i dnt know whyy, hahahahaha
okay i better stop -.-

okay,
i think i have a crush on someone :D i shall name him, Fred ? okay ?
coooool, i wanna have a big crush on Fred since im single and he is single too (:
can i ?
just crush, i dnt dream to be with Fred pun
ahaha.
Fred is one of my friend's cousin, which i just knew that they are cousins
Fred is the manager ( dnt worry, still young ) of a band in Kajang, dnt wanna mention what band is that ((:
and, Fred came to Electric Gig before :D
thats the first time, first place where i met Fred
Fred always calls me ' gile '
and today Fred just mentioned that im the most craziest girl he have ever met ?
the efffffff, thats so cruel, neehh, who cares ? hahahaha

we chatted like almost everyday in this month, we stayed up until its time to sahur (':
Fred's not so nice, Fred'a not so bad, just a lil straight forward, and offensive sometimes.
ahahaha =/
godd, hope this will help me to be happy everyday (':

but im already jealous of this girl, she's sorta flirting with MY FRED.
aaaaaaarrr -__-'
' you teman i smpai buka puasa oke ? jangan pergi. teman i :/ '
something like that lah, ouchhh,
nevermind, i knew Fred first and we both are much more closer than her (';
* trying to think positive ;p



I Like You ****** :D eh, i mean, Fred
teehee

jealous =/

omg, jealoussss gilaaaaaaaaaa
Tania Zainudin ada best friends that really really care for her (':
lord, after stalking Tania's and Melisa's blog, now i realize how close they are
and i dnt think they can ever be separated ((:
how i wish im in the same school with Tania
so we could stick together forever and be closer and closer
dah lamaaa gila tak keluar with Tania )':
i miss her like heeeeeeell, errrrrrrrrrk ))':

uggh, hopefully next year my school tak tukar kan to evening session
cause you'll be in morning session right, Tania ?
why is it like, er, opposite ?
im in morning session now, and you're in evening session,
and then, next year ?
apa pulaaaak -.- i'll probably be in evening session ):
I was freaaaking shocked whenTeacher Normaizan said that next year, peralihan, form 1, form 2 would be in evening session.
omg, thats craaazyy !
how am i supposed to fit myself with that ?
i can bet selalu tidur in class cause it's evening
when will i go out if petang ada school ?
and then, tak boleh tengok those hot guys in other forms ):
thats insane, goddamnit
i really dnt wanna be in evening session, ;'o

anyway, i miss you Tania && Melisa (':

changed to kura kura

Kura kura ? Amir's name has changed to Kura Kura since he carried Zahir's green bag and made him looks like he has a shell at the back, dah lah Amir pendik kan ? :p
neah, you're still cute Amir. haha

so todaay,
Amir Hakim made my day.
his stupidity really made everyone laugh, (:
Mimi pun gelak macam orang gila nazak mau matiii =p
Mir was doing his cute face all day long, arrrr, feels like wanna grab his chubby cheeks :p
hahaha
Mir, serious shit your arms, your hands are MY SPOT ! :p
i've been writing words on you arm/hand
dnt know why i did that, your arm is the most comfortable place to write craps . haha
what tha hell ?
hahahha, i'll definitely miss you during raya, amir (':

Meyshna & Erin pulak, dah lupa kawan.
hahahahaa, go have fun la you both, hate you (':

Raya

Ramadhan's almost over, i will miss waking up very very early in the morning for sahur.
will miss buka-ing puasa, and stuffs
time pass so fast and now raya's coming
i dnt know if its going to be as fun as before?
maktok is gone, and which makes me have no mood to raya
i really miss her, the way she scolds me, make me laugh, tell stories before i go to bed and lullaby me.
she's one of a kind, that no other can replace her.
people come and go, memories and history can only be saved in your mind

perhaps, im gonna raya in kl
first time raya-ing in kl, i wonder how it feels like,
Meliha said its so boring ahaha,
let's just see how it goes

can't wait for wowon's wedding (':
ahaha, she's finally getting married
after so long i've been asking, ' wowon, bila nak khawin ? '
and the answer will always be ' tomorrow ' with a cheeky wide smile on her face.


oh yah, school's okay today (:
* keningkening
fikri acted like he cares about me by holding and looking and my finger which has a deep cut at it
haha
and i also had a " dnt wanna go back " fight with Meyshna
god damnit.
She said i've never cried because of a stomach pain, true
but i dnt wanna go home agaiin, like yesterday
why am i always sick nowdays ?


fafamissesaimanzalariffsobadly

why suddenly ?

Before that, I PAINTED MY ROOM :D * on my own, cool, no ?

today,
i went to school, and i was sneezing so badly
i cant stand it ... it was .. all of sudden.
i didnt wanna go home cause i wanna be with Mimi <3
i keep on sneezing until recess, i told Meyshna, that im sick of this she told me to go back home, i refused.

im getting worst, and did not feel any better so i finally decided to go back home, called my mother, and went back home around 10.40 am i slept until 2.40 pm sheeesh, and now im having headache, arrrr -.-


And what happened just now, is Very Sudden :0
well, you know how much i love this dude, Aiman Zal Ariff ( my bestfren /muscle dogol )
we've never fight before, i mean, never had a real fight
well today i dnt know what went wrong
he should know it was his mistake to greet me that way,
how the hell should i know that he was playing around ? it seems so serious
he knows he's mad & angry, i know im a place for you to tell something to,
but thats not the way to express it to me
and now we're not talking, whatthehell ?
so messed up,
until when will we not talk to each other Ariff ?
Why do you have to be so so Mad because of that girl, i thought she means nothing to you ?
okay, fine, maybe its very rude and sakit hati cause she's blaming you for all
but, cant you talk to me properly, even tho you just woke up from your sleep ?

My point is, im telling that, i dnt wanna spoil our relationship after so good & close being good frens for quite a long time.
You know i will always need you whenever i cry around 3 o'clock in the morning.
I care about you & I love you

hope we'll talk to each other soon.
* sighs

I miss this Pink Monster

i called you three days ago, and we talked for like about 45 minutes maybe ?
but thats not enough, not enough
i miss everything babe

laughing together, putting glue on top of your desk, on your finger, cam whoring, going to your house, put on nail polish, going out together, starbucks with you

even tho we rarely go out together now,

we're always & forever best friends alright ? (:

I love you Tania Zainudin <3

always & forever

obsessed with you

* im sorry people, cause i've been posting alot about him nowdays.

i dont wanna cry for you, again and again
i had enough

but im just so weird, am i ?

you might think i dnt know what's the meaning of broke up

but sometimes, you made me put high hopes on you

example, how you commented my picture on myspace saying that you'll always and forever love me ( tht doesnt really matter act ), the way you texted me, the way you talked to me

it feels like, we're that close to get back together you know ?

just dnt think that i want you to stop all that

i really missed everything

ariff told me to get over it

meysh told me that i just gotta tell you the truth

i j-j-ju-just love you, you know ?

i dont know why the heck is it so hard to get over you

ariff, im sorry that i still couldnt forget him

i know you want me to be happy

but i think by having him again might help me to be happy

people,

i dnt want you to think that my world revolves around him

but isnt this what we call love ?

or should i call it true love ?
you gotta move on Fafa

Fafaissneezingsobad

byebyee, goodnight people

Kelantaaaaaaan

IM AWAY TO KELANTAN
):

will be back on Sunday evening maybe ?

come home

Come home
Come home
Cause I've been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I've ever known
Ever known
So come home
Oh

Everything i can't be
Is everything you should be
And that's why i need you here
Everything i can't be
Is everything you should be
And that's why i need you here
So hear this now

Im in love with this song,
it describes what am i feeling at the moment
to tell you the truth,
im not over him
i still need him like how i used to
i still want to laugh and sing our favourite songs wtih him just exactly like before
its hard to let you go
i dont know why

people say, the shorter your relationship lasts,
it will take time for you to get over it
i miss you
i really do miss fighting with you, sulking with you
hung up the phone while you're crapping and shouting
i remember every single thing that's important to me

i stopped calling you, for like about 3 months
but it never worked
i deleted your number, but there's no point i delete it, cause i still remember it until now

we've never fight that bad
seriously, not at all.
you made me feel loved
you made me feel very low profile and so down-to-earth

and few days back,
your best friend called me, she asked me how am i, whatsoever
and then, your name suddenly popped out in our conversation
my tears dropped slowly while talking about you with your best friend,
hearing about you for 30 minutes will never be enough
she's shocked that im a lil too not over you, cause its been a year ++
she said you asked about me, you missed me
is she still contacting with me.

i cried quite alot that night
i never cried over other guys like i did for you

Judgement day ?

i guess its a sign
i dreamt about a big tall tower, which is full of humans inside
then, came this two bald men,
tried to spoil the tower
they destroyed almost everything just to make those human die in suffer

the situation, ... very hard to explain
it's too crowded and messy
dirty, untidy
everyone were so scared
babies were crying so loud

the tower fell, everyone died, some tried saving their lives
running here and there
some were walking upside down

all i can say is, i am scared
i told my mother about this scary dream
she said this would probably telling me to pray hard, and ask for forgiveness from Allah more
Pray that i'll be forgiven


Qiamat is near ..